just finished a drama that's got me pouring tears.
the ending was such a beautiful one.
i don't get why i am pouring tears though.
just like i don't get whats wrong with me recently.

broke down in the middle of bugis.
threw my bag and my phone on the floor in the library.
trying to get away from my friends.
and there's no reason why.
I've just given up. given up on people whom i think doesn't care.
or at least i haven't been shown that i'm cared for.
sick and tired of seeking attention and care for myself.
if they don't bother, then i shan't too.
i wont take the initiative anymore. so tired.

and jealousy makes me wanna kill. literally.
cant gather enough courage to ask that embarrassing question.
moreover i cant believe i'm jealous.
whats up with me.

i cant believe my emotions overflowed from my heart.
just like how the tears overflowed from my eyes.

should i try to move further?
or should i stay until i cant take anymore cuts on my heart.
i had to face all these since sec 3.
really wonder how many scars there are already.
and do they even notice? guess not.

but no matter what, i still thankful for them.
for whatever they've done.
although it hurts more than i can remember.
guess its a process of growing up.

// Run for you I wake up
Love for you I wake up
A song for you I wake up
Right now Wake up //

a nice song and lyrics from Shut Up Flower Boy Band.
the pretty drama I've just finished.

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