HAPPY


BIRTHDAY


EUNICE


AND BEE!


haha. hope you two smile more and bee cheerful! yao duo xiao. xD
yah. nth much happened today. eunice received alot of presents.
oh thank you twin for helping me buy things.
really hope you like the necklace. <3
oh man. my dad and cousin coming from china tmr.
wo bu yaoooo. then have to bring my cousin around spore.
like i am not busy enough with homework.
and oh. i passed bio quiz. damn happy can.
i only passed like ONE last year. haha its a good start.
jiayou chenyi. you shall pass everything this year.
bu ke yi zai shi bai le. i need to get to JC.
ok. on a lighter note, CNY is coming.
actually its like a annual thing so quite sian.
everywhere is like playing the nan ting de CNY songs.
haha. damn gayyy. i shall not be red on CNY.
bahhh got nothing much to say luh.
the post damn long and crappy alrdy.
bye.

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hoho.
went bugis with jem.
then went woodlands to find daddy meiling mummy georgina and jenzi.
haha. bought eunice's birthday present.
its damn nice. eunice! hope you like it.
cos i like it alot alot.
haha. was thinking about going jc today.
i love 406. ohman. wo bu yao zhe yi ci de fen li.
very difficult to adapt. sucks la.
OHHHH 2 more days yay. haha.
wo yao chi dan gao. nvm.
ohhhhh thank you mummy for lending me ur phone.
if not i cannot sms alrdy. hee.
i am quite piss about somethings. jenzi knows it haha.
its not the thing. its some other thing. haha.
i dont make sense.
jem is gooong today. she piggyphant(piggy+elephant).
haha i drew a drawing of piggyphant. looks damn gay. AHA.
ehhh i think i damn free everyday afterschool.
only tuesday got sth on. then the rest all nth eh.
SUCH A FREE PERSON. so kongxian. look at how busy the class is.
i dun want to go to malaysia. siannn.
why is everyone shopping for new year clothes.
wo mei you qian. howww. haha nvm. i shall make do.

i promise i wont be emo anymore.
i will try very hard
cos i know you dont want me like that.
iamsorry.

sometimes i just need a word of comfort from you.
i just want someone who will go
"its okay. everything is fine. ni mei shi de."
i just need some care from you.

HERO.

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NOW PLAYING: Kissしたまま、さよなら!
haha the song is nice.
i have a feeling jem will like.
i shall send her. haha.
oh anyway the name is pronouced as
KISS SHITA MAMA SAYONARA.
haha sayonara means goodbye. hee.
my two years of jap. AHA.

i dont know why it happened today.
i didnt mean for that to happen.
suddenly i just lost control.
haha i think mummy is pissed with me.
SORRY mummy georgina. haha. you are the youngest mum okay.
ni bu lao la. hahahah. just that mummy sounds cute.
OHNO. i am starting to lose control.
idiot. i need to try harder.
this must not happen again.
i should be the last person which this happens to.
WO DA YING NI MEN WO HUI DUO XIAO. haha SMILE. :D
i can do it JIAYOU.
jennnnnnzichua. cheer up. u must duo xiao also.
leave those stuff behind. they only hinder your way.
hen nan but you said that u will JIAYOU rmb.
if i can do it then you can too.
haha i dont mean that my stuff hinders my way but yah.
you get what i mean hee.
oh SORRY to everyone who saw that today.
YOU DIDNT SEE ANYTHING. NOTHING HAPPENED. haha.
was dou-ing non stop after pe. all the way until after sch.
haha why. i think i lack exercise. i shall go swim hee.
i forgot what i want to say. forget it.
OHYAH. TWIN AND BEE's BIRTHDAY IN 2 DAYS. howww.
haven buy anything yet. rah. shopping tmr! :p

HAHAHA. JUNSU LOOKS LIKE A TURTLE.
OHMAN. The kid at the centre said that today.
haha can you imagine mummy's reaction.
oh and he said jaejoong looks like ah gua.
WTH. he does look PRETTY but what ah gua.
idiot la. then the kid said junsu looks like pig.
mummy's heart piang so many times. poor thing.
but mine too. PIANG! so loud haha.
that gay little boy who made us laugh alot. hee.
little kids are cute BUT only when they dont insult DBSK.
haha. i realise my post sounds gay.
i shall agree with jem that i am gay.
JUST LIKE HER. haha.
the post is so long. i need to quit my addiction. ><
wooh. i just found out that
Kissしたまま、さよなら means AS WE KISS GOODBYE.
haha as DYAN says so. :D

spread the love.
spread the smile.
spread the gayness to everyone. <3!

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sometimes i just feel like running on forever and let the wind dry my tears.

haha. these fews day quite freaky.
cos suddenly people ask me the same question.
it happened twice already.
i am getting quite freaked out. haha.
i realise that the only letter i reply is like hers.
somehow i just dont feel like writing anyone else's letter.
haha i dont know why.
wo bu zhi dao yao shuo shen me. i nv bring my chinese compo home.
WELL DONE MAN. i suck. haha.
ohh jem ask me what i want for my bday today.
i pointed at the DBSK concert cd and said that one.
and the price is $69.90! hahah. she almost fainted. haha.
i am damn gay and noisy today. ask meiling and jem. hee.
oh georgina is my new mummy and meiling is my daddy!
haha it came from total randomness. HAHA.
i dont know what to say anymore. i cant wait for chocolates from china!
its damn nice. <3!

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haha.
these few days damn weird.
ehhh i dno.
suddenly people keep asking me if my blogpost is about them.
haha then i dno what to say lorh.
it like so weird. usually no one ask this kind of qn one.
nvm. i really think i shld reduce my blogging frequency.
but i cannot control. i need somewhere to rant.
rahhh i suck. ><
eeyer i want JAEJOONG. haha.
i realise that when i am really in a bad mood,
i would go i want JAEJOONG. haha.
he is like my emotional support.
even though hes that far away. haha.

i know.
i cant expect anything from you can i.
but if thats the ending i am going to get.
why do you bother to apologise in the first place.
you said all that to make me feel better.
and in the end you just say something that brings me to hell.
whats ur point. what do u want from me.
you ask if i cried cos of you. my answer was no.
but do you believe that. its not possible right.
do you now how hard i tried.
do you know how hard it is for me not to cry over you.
you know how tired i am.
i really should let go. i really should hate you.
like you said we were never that close.
i should learn to grow up.
but its really hard to let you go. this sucks.

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HAPPY


BIRTHDAY


JAEJOONG!


WHEEEEEEEEEE! ITS FINALLY 26TH JAN.
THE BIRTHDAY OF THE HERO OF DBSK.
KIM JAEJOONG!
HE IS THE BEST!
HIS SINGING IS DAMN NICE.
HE IS JUST SO GOODLOOKING.
AND HIS DANCING IMPROVED ALOT SINCE LAST TIME.
THEREFORE I CONCLUDE THAT HE'S THE BEST.
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR 22ND BIRTHDAY!
KIM JAEJOONG HWAITING.

hahahaha.
okay i shall return to normal mode.
was being damn excited just now.
this first i saw him my reaction was like
OMG HE IS SO SHUAII. haha.
and i realise that whenever i show someone who never seen DBSK
a photo of them. their FIRST reaction will be JAEJOONG is shuaii.
haha so i am reliable. cos got many ppl support me haha.
hmm. he worked very hard this year and really improved alot.
and his hair changed colour too haha. became golden. hee.
its nice la. though many ppl prefer his white hair. me too. xD
erm yah so he improved alot and his voice is even nicer now. yay.
his singing just rocks la. and his voice is like an angel's.
haha i just love that voice hee. cant wait to get their new album!
oh and i realise that my birthday will be coming in 6 days.
cos i am 6years and 6days younger than JAEJOONG. so cool right.
haha yah. and my dad is coming on my birthday.
ohman he is bringing alot of things this time.
cos everyone wants sweets and chocolate and what not. haha.
oh and i am going to malaysia for CNY.
rahhh i dont want to go. i want my angbaos. eeyer.
and somemore i am leaving on yunho birthday.
then i cant blog about his birthday. sian.
i want to stay here. eeyer my dad la. say what go malaysia play.
rubbish la. whats there to play in KL. yucks.
anyway today is a HAPPY day cos its JAEJOONG birhday.
i shall not be pissed. i am happy happy. hahahahaha.
i feel GAY. must be jem and charis affected me. hahahah.

KIMJAEJOONG IS LOVE! <3

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HAPPY


BIRTHDAY


MEILING!

haha. hope u like the present we gave you!
ehhhh you are 16 alrdy. must erm study hard and play hard.
good luck for this year and SMILE alot! haha.
oh and if you really not feeling happy then u can just tell me.
then i wont disturb you. i feel bad to disturb u that day.
but i really quite worried so yah. i kept looking at you.
sorry haha. you ahhh must SMILE ALOT ALOT AND ALOT. comeon.
everything will be fine! GO MEILING! haha. <3

haha today meiling received alot of presents.
she looks very happy. hope she really is.
other than that then nth much happened.
changing keyboard teacher. yay.
my mum's changing me to yamaha or christofori.
haha so happy. like FINALLY. heee.
i realise that there alot of things i want to learn. but no time.
want learn electric guitar, drums and dance.
WO MEI YOU SHI JIAN. howw. ><
ehhh thank you for replying. though u took abit long. haha.
hmm what happened to ur leg ahhh. it looks bad ><
haha you can answer me in the letter. i know you know who you are hee :p
HAHAHA. i got headache AGAIN. i can go die alrdy la. rubbish.
i forgot to hand in my chinese. i finished it. rah.
OH. jaejoong's birthday is tmr. so excited. haha dno for what.
ehhh mei you shi qing jiang le. hee. georgina is so cute HAHA.
thats so random i know. ohno. i forgot sth again. oops.
DBSK & BIGBANG!

you are just so close to everyone except me.
am i just jealous.
i dont know. i think i am.
but you cant just stop caring like that right.
i cant do it. rah.

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PURPLE LINE KOREAN VERSION.
haha i like it when DBSK sings in korean.
but i like their jap songs too. haha.
i just like them la. haha.
tmr is meiling's birthday!
happy birthday meiling.
i love you. haha and YOU KNOW that.
shall say the wishes tmr.
ehhhh i like KIBUM SIWON and YESUNG from SUJU.
haha was looking at their album today.
YESUNG looks like LEEJUNKI alot in EHB. haha.
but he doesnt really look that nice elsewhere. dno.
rahhh headache headache.
its so bad that it really irritates me.
almost fainted today.
like stood up then vision totally blurs out.
OHMAN. i hate it when its like that.
公主小妹 is nice! wuzun is so shuaii. aha.
DBSK PURPLE LINE + BIGBANG I DONT UNDERSTAND!

you know. i cant express how much i need you.
what do you expect me to do.
i hate this torture.
tell me the solution.
i am tired of trying to save the relationship.

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see. its nice right. so pretty luh.
it flew all the way from sabah leh.
i took this photo. and of course i did something to the colour.
JAEJOONG WEARS NICE ACCESSORIES. i am jealous.



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without you, what do you want me to do.
i cant live without you. come on.
i dont like you being like that.

haha my ring came from malaysia.
so far away right. i send money over somemore.
hahaha. its nice nice nice. oh you know what.
its JAEJOONG STYLE. he wore that design one before.
omg i am so happy. haha. but its so big i cannot wear.
i think its for guys. nvm shall hang it on my neck.
ohwell nothing happened today.
BIGBANGing!

if i dont feel happy can i cry.
can i. i need your shoulders to cry on.

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haha i declare that i like BIGBANG.
cos their songs all very HIGH.
dont have much slow songs i think.
all the songs got strong rhythm.
haha and i like. cos i need HIGH songs.
but i still like DONGBANG. i will never not like them.
just listening to BIGBANG now cos i need HIGH songs.
played volleyball with twin today.
very short "game" but still i got to play.
after so long of not playing it.
tennis is fun. i am getting the hang of it yay.
but i dont like not using strength to hit. the ball so low.
hmm. oh ya after sch today hsinfang jenzi and cx were being gay.
cos we are suppose to have our skirts long than the knee.
so they go and wear the skirt damn low to make it long.
and it was really VERY long. like omg.
then cx pull up her socks. so high can. haha.
then hsinfang and cx make their bags damn high.
haha then they took alot of photos.
they look SO nerdy omg. so funny. hahahaha.
oh need send jenzi photos.
and tmr is the 23rd Jan!
its the release date of ALBUM T by DBSK.
i bet it wont be found in singapore so soon. :/

oh i realised that i keep staring at her.
i dont know why. i cannot control.
its like everywhere i go i am searching for her.
i just want to know where she is.
i feel like a stalker. haha i dont mean that. ><
maybe i just care too much. its not my fault.
you owe me a letter. come on. wheres my reply.

how will you feel if someone just take over your place
and you get replaced in that someone's heart.
can you think before you kill.
think of the feelings of the person who is being replaced.
you know how much it hurts.
get lost. stop trying to budge in.

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its 1.40am
and its my 200th post.
well done. haha.
will die of PE tmr.

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hello.
haha my addiction of blogging is here again.
ohno i am suppose to do LA speech now.
i dont like WAR. so boring.
what else can we talk about rah.
i am not in the mood for work today.
stupid. haha for the sake of PE i shall go sch tmr.
HAHA. oh EHB ep 10 is funny. haven got time to watch.
i shall watch it tmr. haha jaejoong is the BEST can.
HAHAHAHAHA. i shant say why. ><
oh and his birthday is coming.
i dont know why but i am just exicited.
haha so stupid right. he is far far away in dno where now.
wonder where will he spend his birthday.
ehhh i went off focus haha. thats not the point.
i forgot the point. haha well done.
OH IRIS AND HSINFANG VERY FUNNY.
they were singing and singing JAYCHOU songs after school in class.
so funny. haha. their singing is erm NICE haha.
haha i am listening to JAYCHOU now. HAHA.
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.
now you know what i am listening to. heh.
its nice. although i am abit slow in saying this haha.
ohman my mum got $200 as HONGBAO from her boss.
so good la. ohman. hmm i shall stop blogging rah.

i just need a word of comfort from you.
cos then no matter how tired i am
i will pull through.

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hello.
ehhh was thinking of something ytd.
ytd was taking mrt home then i thought of something my
sec2 teacher said to me.
haha. it was very funny. cos she said i look very dao.
then shes very scared of me. then before she left the sch
then she wrote us notes
and she said that i have a dao look and i shld smile more. haha.
then i spend the whole afternoon ytd thinking about that.
haha. but i really got very dao meh.
ok maybe when i am alone or dont talk. but i think i smile alot eh.
haiyo. alot of people all say i very dao then very scared of me.
hmm i shall smile more then. but isnt very stupid to smile to urself when you are alone. like idiot can. haha. i shall try not to be dao when i am not alone then.
haha i shall be a friendly person. ok i am so random. rah.

why is it that i care and you dont.
when can people stop taking me for granted.

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i have tried. i did.
and the rest isnt up to me anymore.
its your turn.
however you respond.
i promise i will be strong.
although that might not be the case but i will try.
i shall do it no matter what happens.
i know i tried and thats alright.
I WILL GET THERE. AND SO WILL YOU.

hoho. today nothing much happened so theres nothing to say.
must go see him tmr. haha i dno whats the point but still.
haha american idol is damn gay. always got weird people doing weird things.
so funny can. hahahaha. tags! ><
RUTH!hello. haha yeah i know your name too. blur blur girl. so cute heh. xD
JENZI!haha theres nothing wrong YOU KNOW. haha what are you thinking of. you pollute ur own mind can. where got innocent. HAHA.
TWIN!haha okay. now i know. YEAH! i love twin THREE!heh.
why am i so high. ohno. what did i overdose myself with. ><
cant wait for 23JAN- DBSK ALBUM T!
cant wait for 24JAN- 公主小妹 ON CHANNEL U!
cant wait for 25JAN- MEILING's BIRTHDAY!
cant wait for 26JAN- JAEJOONG's BIRHTDAY!!!
OMG this month so many things to look forward to.
haha. i cant wait for you. heh.

but i dont hope that we stay like that.
i shall try harder no matter what.
ILY.

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stayed in school today till 6plus.
haha so long nv stay in school alrdy.
and i realise that i damn long nvm take 852!
took 156 today. rah. had to send someone home.
anyway met ruth! for the first time.
shes so damn cute can. haha. damn blur.
and met xinyi too. omg i love her can.
she is from ny volleyball and now in hc volleyball.
omg my idol! hahahaha. ok nvm. i sound stupid.
ahhh anyway today during lunch meiling and bel were trying to play BEGIN.
haha the results abit aherm. ya haha. but its really very difficult la.
heh. i dno where i found the score. but its nice. hoho.
and oh forever love acapella is nice. haha their voices so angelic. HOHO.
TWIN! must write my letter okay. haha then i got sth to reply.
but actually u dont owe me letter leh. nvm just write. ilovetwin yay.
oh and i need to reply melissa's letter. haha the very contentless letter.
haha what am i suppose to reply eh. but i feel bad not replying. ><
i shall find something to write about! haha. blah.

if i want to know will you tell me.
will you open your heart. please.

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BOO.
haha. today was gay. again.
ehhh went to study at plaza sing with eunice and shaun.
haha until now i am still wondering if his name is Shaun or Shawn.
i dno! i think its Shaun. haha at least eunice's blog says so.
haha damn gay. dno how to spell the name of the person you study with.
i am the BEST can. yah. anyway i was being gay today.
but then the two of them was gay too. so it was fun la.
joke around and did our work. my maths is so screwed can.
i dno how to do alot. then end up they have to teach me. -.-
jenzi! why didnt you go. its your aherm leh. how can u not go. haha.
ohwell i agree with jenzi on this issue. haha. jenzi! you shld know what i mean.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. i am so gay. thats the LONG TERM EFFECT of sitting beside jem.
ok nvm. i have nth more to say alrdy. haha.
I<3TWIN!

no matter how the world changes, my heart will never change.

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how hurt must a heart be before it is broken.
how torn and tired must my soul be before i can give up.
i dont know. if i only i knew. then i wouldnt be standing here right now.

no matter how hurt my heart is, i will never let it forget you.
no matter how tired my soul is, i will never give you up.
but i really dont know. dont know what you are thinking.
i wish i did.

everything will be the same until someone takes the first step.
but i am afraid of everything that comes along.
i dont dare to take that step. so will you do it. please.

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HELLO.
its 2am.
haha i just finished CHINESE and IH and LA SPEECH.
and i haven done bio.
well done. haha.
serious lack of sleep alrdy.
i really do hope i dont faint after 5 rounds for PE.
and yes it is ONLY 5 rounds.
i feel useless.
physically and mentally.
physically cos i am tired even for running.
and mentally cos of erherm. nothing.
haha. i shall sleep soon.
bahhhh.

ILY. but i dont know you.


i feel so useless cos i cant help.
i really want to help you.
but i cant. cos i dont know whats in ur heart.
i am so useless.

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haha i am blogging.
AGAIN. for the 3rd time today. eh is it?
anyway had a funny convo with joy.
i dont even know what the content is.
just crapping. but she helps. haha.
EHB is really very funny. i made georgi watch.
and shes amused too. like i am.
i laugh until my mum got a scare and asked what happened.
haha damn gay. oh and i think yoochun looks damn shuai in EHB.
his hair is like slant to one side. damn nice. haha.
i am hua chi-ing just like jenzi does for our maths tcher.
hahahaha i shldnt be like that. ok nvm. i still love jaejoong.
although he didnt do much. he is still cute. haha he plays badminton.
HAHAHAHA so cute can. i want to play that game.
run in the direction of the arrow.
damn cool. yoochun's speed is like OMG. 1.75 seconds. GOSH.
haha the dodge ball is so cool.
their speed and strength is like hahaha. i dno what to say man.
eeyer i want to watch the eat chilli one. suppose to be out today.
i shall wait for the subbed one. yay. i cant wait man. haha.
DBSK said that the chili is sweet when Suju is like all crying cos of the super hot chili. ohman. hahahaha. amusing can. i bet gi is so amused by now. xD
ok i shall go bath now considering it is 11.45pm. i feel so dirty. haha.
but then i bathed in the morning alrdy. shldnt be that dirty.
haha i shall stop talking rubbish. i am like a bin alrdy.
boo. shall go bath NOW. bye.

i wanna know who is in your heart.
everything you talk about. is about that someone.
i really want to know your problems. cos i know its not about me.
maybe i am curious. or am i just jealous.
but i want to know whats in your heart.

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rahhh.
i am speechless.
haha then why am i blogging.
ohman. how. i dno what to do anymore.
this sucks.

i love you more than i do.
and nothing ever changes. but you.

its been a long time since we went home tgt.
do we still have the chance to.
or do you simply dont want to have anything to do with me.
i really like the times we went home together.
we will do that right. someday. i hope.

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i need to stop stoning whenever i am not talking.
i need to smile more for the people around me.
i need to stop thinking too much.
i need to stop doubting everything about you.
i need to stop feeling down.
i need to just GET HIGH.

haha thats everything i need to do for this year.
i shall do it. ohno. i MUST do it.
i musnt be a disappointment.

iloveyou.
all the same.
nothing will affect it.

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boo.
haha today was gay.
me and jem were being very gay. as usual. haha.
and oh during recess we had er ren shi jie according to her.
haha were eating a cake together. ok a PIECE of cake.
not a cake. thats scary hahahaha. anyway laiweng came and "disturbed" us.
hahahaha ok la. not disturb. she just came and sat down.
its friday hoho. hmm this week is not a good week for me.
but still i want to thank people for making my week!
JEM!thank you for listening to me rant and being gay around me.
makes me gay too. hahaha.
CHARIS!thank you for always concerning about me and asking if i was ok.
i was ok and i still am. haha dont worry.
JENZI!thank you for encouraging me and saying that i can rant to you. i shall do it one day. hoho.
and thank you to people who always make me laugh.
MEILING MELONG JOY. you all are so funny.
and thank you TWIN for always saying that you love me. i love you too. hahaha. ok i shall not be bias. i love everyone. xD
hahaha my blog post make it sound like thanksgiving day today.
but this week is really emotional and its really thanks to these people that i survived. THANK YOU EVERYONE. i might not have mention ur name but you are as important to me.

okay i am done with thanking. i shall continue blogging proper.
today was sian. my neck aches like mad. i cant even bow properly. haha.
anyway theres actually nothing about today that i can talk about.
its just like any day. oh melissa gave me another pig today. i have got 2 alrdy.
haha i refuse to call her melwee. anyway she wanted to give me today then i said i have one alrdy and jokingly i said i dont mind another one and she really gave me. haha THANK YOU MELISSA.they make a nice couple haha. another one to thank. but the pig is so damn cute and it make me smile whenever i look at it. i guess it made everyone around me smile too. they keep playing with it. haha. i shall bring the white one to school. pig couple. haha thats GAY. jem will laugh.
oh i think our maths teacher is cute. althought people dont like him cos they say he cant teach. but still he is cute. that day he wore specs and i was like SO CUTE to meiling. hahahah. meiling says his smile is nice. yes it is. haha. i realise that this post is very long. so rare. ohno. homework for the weekend. i am gonna die.
and i just cant concentrate. i should stop thinking so much. it affects me alot.
rah i suddenly dno what to say. shall end here. bah.


i cant stop thinking about everything.
everything about you. everything that happened.
i need you back.

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rah.
i am so freaking emo nowadays.
what rubbish is this.
CHENYI! stop emoing.
like jem said.
we are suppose to be high and gay.
hahahahaha.
i bought my mum a cake for her bday.
cannot finish. bringing it to sch tmr.
who want can just eat. haha.
i dont mind.
rahhh sucks la.
i just cant feel high.
whats the problem with me.
rah i need someone to talk to.
i need everything to be back in place.
i need you.

wakeup.


i dont know whats ur apology for.
arent we still as awkward as before.
i dont even know if you care.
can you just tell me your feelings.
i really dont know how to face you.
i know that you are not happy.
please. be alright. dont be so heatbreaking.
stop tiring youself. hmm.
you owe me a letter. rah.

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when smiling is so difficult.

i am tired.
tmr got maths retest.
sucks la. i dno how to do.
i give up. rahhh.
feel so drained out.
like just a body walking arnd.
bahhhh.

i have got nothing more to say.
if you dont care then be it.
i shall just let my heart hurt.
whatever. too tired to continue chasing after you.
if only you can care. you will bring me back to life.

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hoho. i noticed that i have been blogging alot nowadays.
why ahh. i got too much to crap i guess.
haha maybe its a emotional relieve to blog. who knows.
anyway ytd i slept at 2am plus.
haha cos i cant sleep after i went to bed at 1.30am.
hmm dont ask me the reason for staying up so late.
it wasnt me. HAHA.
oh anyway today was quite tired
cos i slept at 2am for a few days alrdy.
then got PE. need to run 5 rounds around the hall.
i thought that can one
then in the end maybe cos too long nv run and lack of sleep
i was half dead after running. haha.
my legs were shivering like mad. i dno why.
and cx said that i looked pale. haha lucky nv faint.
wahhhh. now i know what it is like to run feeling tired.
hoho. but it still feels good to run. heh.
will people hate me for saying that. ohman.
jem dont hate me. i just like to run. not like you.
HAHAHA. anyway watched some random movie for chinese.
damn olden days china style. so familiar.
china tv got alot of this kind of things. hoho.
OH i handed in all my homework alrdy.
so happy can. althought my 15.1 was like not very complete.
HAHAHAHAHA. i dont care. at most do corrections.
and i learnt something from today.
haha walking beside charis AND jem right
you have to find someone to sms if not you will be DAMN bored.
you turn both sides then both sides also sms-ing.
then walk so slow. haha. ><
bahhh i got nothing to say alrdy.
JIAYOU for maths retest. its coming soon.
hoho.

i shall not write anything emo this time.

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rahhh.
i need a way to relieve my emotions.
if not i think i am snapping soon.
bahhh boxing the wall doesnt help can.
not matter how painful my knuckles end up to be.
actually nothing helps. even if i cried.
even if i told someone.
but really. what is there to say.
say that i am the idiot who cries over something hopeless.
say that you dont even care about it anymore
and i am just caring too much.
but what can i do. i just care. its natural.
i cant even control my feelings.
all the side effects from being near you.
headache. knocking my knees on that stupid chair. it hurts.
rahhhh i feel so lost. tell me what can i do.
what can i do so that i can face you.
like before. before everything has happened.
because i know and i can tell.
there are so many people more important in your life.
maybe i should just give up. keep this to myself.
cos you have more things to care about.
i shant be irritating ah. haha. idiot.

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i guess we just dont know how to express ourselves.
i cant see through whats in ur heart.

haha i am so crappy today.
whats my problem man.

blood or tears.
what do you want.
hahaha. sounds weird.
i dno if i should cry or hmm. you know.
hahahaha. rubbish man.
what am i talking about.
i hate myself for all that. rahhhh.

why do i have so much crap to say today. AHA.

thank you!

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bahhh.
what have i got to say.
theres PE tmr. i am happy.
but its tennis. ohno.
haha. i shall learn tennis yay.
i still haven do linear law.
well done man. hahahaha.
somewomanbroughtsomewaterlookalikethingtoschooltoday.
itsnicecositburnsdownyourthroathaha.
haha i didnt say anything. bahhh.
i am suppose to do linear law. like NOW.
rahhh. dont feel like it. i want to run.
haven run for so long. my legs are useless alrdy.
haha. oh jenzi and meiling are very funny. hoho.
so random. nvm. its work time. ><

i want my answer.
the answer that you owe me.
where is it.
i dont like this feeling. rah.

are you going to change again.

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hahahaha.
i am in a good mood. yay.
my mum FINALLY bought me ALL ABOUT DBSK SEASON2.
like after how long.
and she bought it with my money.
thank you man.
and oh she bought me FEILUNHAI's new album.
with her money >< look at the price difference.
$99.90 and $20.90 eeyer.
but got nice files that came along with FLH's album.
HAHA I GOT WUZUN! ok nvm. must hide from cx. HAHA.
i can wait to watch DBSK's couple talk. damn funny.
i watched abit online. so blur ><
lalalalala. i haven done my homework. slacker.
hoho monday can sleep more yay. shall be guai.
wake up do homework. hahahaha.
shall go watch it NOW.NOW.NOW.
"You're my miracle" says the TV. haha.

would you blame me for everything.
i am so selfish.
or is it we dont communicate enough.
maybe we need to TALK. about it.

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wahhh.
whyyy.
suddenly my heart trembled.
like shivering. hen tong. literally.
so scary. feels like got heart attack.
eeyer.

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hoho.
i am blogging at a nice timing of 12.42AM.
i finished my 读书报告！and help jem with hers.
and i am suppose to go sleep alrdy.
but today i wanted to blog sth for the whole day.
i dno why its just stuck in my head.
its cause of YOU. rahhh.
oh TALK PLAY LOVE is nice! yay i love ANYBAND. and the phone.
haha. so random. but i keep listening to that song. its NICEEE! xD
oh and i saw this photo where jaejoong looked very shuai.

i dont understand why you apologise.
isnt everything still the same as before.
you are still as cold.
and you changed. yet again.
what will it be like.
i dont want another tortured year ahead.

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yay new blogskin.
DBSK! heh.
bah sch tmr.
die. :X

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