oh i forgot this.
my necklace! so pretty haha <3!

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HELLO. ITS 29th FEB! haha.
special day eh.
blah. but then today got nth special happening.
oh anyway after school today i got cheated by meiling.
she couldnt deceide to go for match or go buy heels.
then she said maybe she going buy heels so i was saying i go with her.
so i waited for her to finish her maths ws.
then after she finish she couldnt deceide again.
in the end she deceided to go home -.-
i felt damn cheated eh. but then shes nice. she smsed and apologised.
haha its okay. i wasnt like very angry or sad or what.
just feel cheated haha. in the happy way.
haha i feel damn gay. GET CHEATED IN THE HAPPY WAY -.-
JEM! your fault. your gayness! tsk. haha.
ehhh had some random maths quiz on differentiation today.
and its like not counted. i got 9/10 eh. i rather he count it. ><
meiling got full marks. haha i got careless mistake again.
blah holidays monday and tuesday is packed.
its okay. i still have 5 days of holidays! (:
next week is graces alrdy. omg. i cant wait. haha i bet it fun.
esp the part about us staying together. will have alot of fun together!
eeyer i think jinyao is evil.
today after school i was about to leave class then was carrying my bag.
then she came and pull up my bag by the handle thingy and let go!
and then cos i was onlying carrying one side of my bag,
the whole bag came falling down my arm.
and my bag damn heavy! the strap went pulling down my hand.
damn pain eh. my arm was red after that. tsk JINYAO YOU EVIL PERSON. ><
then i tried to whack her with my bag as revenge haha.
but i am too nice so i didnt do that. hee.
omg alina ask me to go to eunice's church on sunday cos F.I.R is going.
OMG F.I.R! haha exciting. i like FAYE haha. shes pretty (:
blah the post is long again >< oops.
i am disappearing now. BYEBYE.
OH AND OAYNIJ I LOVE YOU TOO <3 though u are still evil ><

no matter how close we are
our hearts are worlds apart. nothing will bring us closer.
unless you bring your heart here. my heart is always with you.

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boo.
haha today went to far east with CHENGXIN JINYAO ALINA JEM.
wahhh walk for damn long eh.
the chengxin and jem took quite long to get their dress eh.
but they still bought it in the end. and they bought heels too!
haha i have a photo of cx in her dress. cept she bought a different colour.
its nice eh. haha. but then i didnt manage to get her a necklace today ):
oh oh i think that i cannot survive beside jinyao.
i will die of laughing sooner or later. shes so gay. ><
haha i think she cannot make it luh.
on the bus to fareast the four of us laughing so much eh.
then she gave her usual why-are-you-all-so-amused look. -.-
shes damn funny eh. haha and i think shes got bad taste.
haha look at her BOYFRIEND then u know why. haha.
she think so too. she says she needs new contacts!
i was suggest she might as well go for laser. can see BETTER. haha.
oh and i bought a necklace today. its nice but damn ex. >< rah.
i am MONEYLESS now eh. got $0.00 left in my wallet. how.
that equates to no food for tmr and friday.
nice diet eh. prepare for graces cos we fatten ourselves today. -.-
hoho and i told jinyao to buy that slippers one eh.
its damn cute. haha and unique cos its bright yellow. (:
blah. i dno what else to say. shall post some pictures next time.
and and i think JINYAO IS GAY. haha shes NOT STRAIGHT! ><
byebye. (:

you are the miracle. <3

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heels!
haha i love my heels eh.
more than i love my dress.
hahaha they are nice right. hee (:

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4 inch high heels.
and i am walking in it for graces.
good luck to me man. haha.
but i can manage eh.
walked around the house in it.
HOHO. dont stand next to me during graces.
in case you feel short. unless ur heels are higher.
haha and dont come close to me if u are tall.
i want to feel tall for once.
that explains why my heels are like so high haha.
i am sad luh. i cannot grow taller. ><
haha nvm. my mum says i will still grow one. HAHA.
jiayou people. you can still all grow one. HOHO.

haha this is a happy post.
no emoness shall be expressed.
FOR ONCE. (:

trying to be brave.
for just once.
i want to try to hold on.
and not let everything break apart.
i can do it. for once i am telling myself that.

haha self motivation eh.
come on. we all need to motivate ourself.
jiayou everyone. chase away our stupid emoness (:

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hello.
haha went to bukit batok with rachel and meiling today.
rahhh stupid stupid.
me and meiling cannot find any nice accessories and heels.
how. and rachel! faster buy ur dress. buy a special one kay.
haha today had some council thing then meiling was sleeping throughout.
then her head slant here slant there damn funny!
haha me and jem keep putting our hands
behind her head so that she dont hit the table.
haha damn hao xiao luh. then at one point she was sleeping on my hand aha.
meiling you rock. haha you are the best.
eeyer this weekend got alot of homework.
and i am stuck at home cos no one ask me out. ahhh i am sad ):
ahhh. i need to reply eunice.
and i STILL haven write to meiling.
haha i suck can. ><
eeyer i think i shld write jenzi letters
cos i always write her so many notes in class.
haha jenzi do you mind. i got ALOT to tell you eh.
OH and that melissawee still owes me a letter.
haha i think she rocks luh. the best.
like HOW LONG ALRDY. haha she says she is lazy.
okayy. haha anything lorh.

ahhh i got a scolding from my mum for using the comp.
whats wrong with her man. ><
i shall go and do homework NOW then.
i hate homework. rah i am sad ):

i realise that everyone has a emo side.
it only depends on whether they show it.
some people look so happy that you get really shock when u see them emo.

ahhhh something is wrong. i dont know what.
but i can feel it somehow. something is wrong with you.
rah. are you okay. what can i say. i feel so useless.
why am i so freaking scared of you. idiot.
i dont even dare to face you anymore.
am i scared or am i angry.
wo bu zhi dao. ):

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i hate you.

is that what u want me to say.
are you happy now.
this is what u said in the first place.
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU MAN.
i really dont know and i dont understand.
this feeling is worse than anything else.
seeing your heartbreaking but knowing nth.
and i cant even do anything to help.
rahhh.i hate it that we are like strangers.
or maybe. worse than strangers.
i just hate it when its like that. ><

i want to be someone to you.
i want to share everything with you.
i just want to be your friend.

today just sucked like hell.

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haha. look at that.
i seriously think yoochun and jaejoong rocks can.
haha actually i knew the song was written by them.
but then i didnt know yoochun is the one playing the piano.
the song is DAMN NICE as you can hear it playing on my blog now.
haha. i cant believe jaejoong wrote it with yoochun.
THEY ROCK CAN. i love that song. hoho. they are the best. <3

hero!
micky!

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hello hello.
haha today is a nice day.
ehhh after sch we brought joanna and jinfaye to the nyaa place.
then we saw david! ehh he said that he want me! omg so cute. ahhh.
then he went to tell ms raja that he want me teach him.
too bad i am not doing CIP today. haha.
i thought that he forgot me lorh. but today he like suddenly rmb me.
haha then after that we came back sch then meiling went for 3rd lang.
then then we went to plaza without waiting
for meiling cos her dad fetching her.
hoho. at plaza i finally bought DBSK's album. haha. damn happy.
it took damn long to come out luh. yay i FINALLY bought it.
hoho. i am damn high cos of the album. i love their albums luh.
always the songs damn nice then the design
and layout everything also damn nice.
HOHO I JUST LOVE THEIR ALBUMS LUH.
haha or simply I JUST LOVE DBSK.
hahaha. i am so so so damn high.
oh i am copying photos in chengxin's cam to my comp.
then must help her copy to thumbdrive and give her.
cos she lost the wire to connect to her comp. then i also lost.
but i can connect thru my printer haha.
shes got damn alot of photos. the estimated time is one hour can.
haha now its 48mins. chengxinyap! why u got so many photos.
and alot of the photos damn gay.
cos she took in china with hsinfang and melissawee.
DAMN FUNNY CAN. haha. the 3 of them cannot make it luh.
ehh anyway this is not the point.
hahaha jem just asked me if i am sian of her talking about libera.
ehhh i am NOT. really. i think they are cute.
and she is not sian of me talking about DBSK. hoho.
i just told her DBSK got onto some world chart ranking 19th out of 40.
and the rest on the list is all like western singers.
yay i am so happy for them. and proud of them too. DBSK ROCKS!<3 yay.
haha okay okay. i should stop here and try to copy photos for cx.
haha shes got 1314 photos. damn cool can. :D
she shld love me lorh. haha i am so nice right. haha. okay okay.
BYEBYE. <3

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today gi said sth that made me think.
cos i told her that i will be happy if my friends are.
so i always try to make them happy.
then she said: so 你的快乐是建立在别人的快乐上.
ehhh this sentence actually is true eh.
i dno. i am really happy when my friends are.
but then it doesnt apply if i am really feeling damn bad that day.
so i always try to make people happy. cos i feel better.
that day i was telling meiling that i really put ALOT into my friends.
and alot of people said that to me. they say i shldnt put too much.
but then i am like that and i cannot change that.
sometimes its good to be like that. but usually its not.
i dno. meiling was saying that sometimes when someone cry right
then the people around her will like comfort her.
but then some people only comfort her cos they dont want to see her cry
and they might not really care alot for that person.
but some people will really care and
they comfort her cos they dont want her sad.
i think i am the second kind lorh.
for most of my friends right if they cry i will be really heartbroken.
but then have to see if we are close enough. haha.
i think i have gone out of point. ><
haha i was really thinking alot and very hard after gi said that to me.
rahhh so it that a good thing or not.
i dno but i just think that i shld try to make my friends happy
cos i hate to see them sad. i dno lah. aiya. -.-
i will smile when you smile. so come on. SMILE :D
haha. i think i talk rubbish. bahh bahh.
haha jem calls sheep bahhhbahhhs and mehhhmehhhs.
sounds damn cute. like teach kids one.

oh we saw david today.
he is damn cute omg. haha ask gi and meiling.
he is very very funny one. oh and i think the guy i taught also very funny.
cos he was counting with his fingers.
then the numbers which is more than 10 then he cannot count.
so he asked me to put out 2 fingers to let him count.
haha he sort of borrowed my fingers to count. haha very funny eh.
aherm. i dno what to say. chengxin forgot to give me her memory card! -.-
oh i think gg is very nice! haha my hw was late and he didnt scold me.
he still offered to teach me the qns i dno how to do. haha so nice right.
meiling says he is fake. haha maybe he is only nice to me. thats why!
haha. and i think he smile until very cute. and he is funny omg.
i am still reminded of the stupid graph incident. he is so hao xiao. xP
i should start all my hw early and not hand in late work anymore.
rahhh. stupid chenyi. you must do it kay. haha shall get jem to force me. :x

can you just put a little heart into it.
just a little bit please.
its so hard for me. rah.

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HAPPY


BIRTHDAY


CHANGMIN.


haha i dont have any nice photos of him but still.
HAPPY BDAY CHANGMIN.
haha hes the youngest in DBSK but he is good at singing.
his high notes are freaky says jem.
ehhh i realised that he grown alot since last time.
he is alot more mature now. and he is shuai-er alrdy.
and and his dancing improved alot. and his singing skills too!
really got a big difference from last time.
he is not a little boy anymore. haha we must take him seriously now.
ehhh actually he is quite cool now. really.
erm i think thats all i want to say.
Hope that he is blessed this year! <3DBSK.

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hello.
i am back to post what i didnt post.

Friday: released at 1215pm.
meiling jenzi and me watched KUNGFUDUNK.
met rachel and chengxin at cineleisure watching that too.
the movie was quite boring.
meiling and i think that it focus too much on jay.
then after the movie jenzi had to go home.
meiling and me walked her to the busstop.
then we walk back to cineleisure to eat.
and walk to mrt to take mrt home.
WE WALKED ALOT. haha.
ehhh on the mrt we talked. ALOT ALOT.
about alot of things. haha i love talking to meiling.
i dno. can like communicate with her well. haha. <3

Saturday: had flagday in the morning.
was damn pissed luh. sorry meiling jenzi bel.
and thank you all for letting me tag along.
went around with jenzi.
we slacked abit outside 7-eleven.
oops. haha anyway we talked. like serious talk.
then took photos. damn gay hahaha. <3jenzi.
after that four of us ate chicken rice cos we were in chinatown.
i got 2 ten dollar notes haha. got nice people. xP
then went back. after flagday we had a BAI NIAN MARATHON.
went to people's house to bai nian. damn funny.
ALOT ALOT ALOT of funny things happened.
and we took lots of photos.
but i shall not state the names. cos they dont want to be known.
haha. meiling is scared of taking the lift alone at night.
then she called me when shes taking the lift.
damn funny. the call was lame. hahaha ><

ehhh thats all for the 2days.
oh i went to yesasia and saw DBSK's T album.
the 2cds 2 dvds one is like 93bucks. ><
so expensive can. and my mum dont want pay for me.
i shall save up. shall not eat too much next week.

you did not see what WAS here.
haha. its gone. and never coming back again.
the words i regret saying.
iamsorry for making it so obvious. ><

you know forgetting takes time.
and letting go isnt easy.
i just cant do it.
everyone says i shld let go.
but i hate the hurt when i try.
can i not let go.
but i know it will end up with more hurt as everyone says.

rahhh i want to fly to the place where they are.
i want DBSK now. i am always in need of jaejoong esp when i am not happy.
haha comeon where are they. hee. xP

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hello. i just got home not long ago.
i am lazy to blog now.
shall do it tmr.
oh i replied eunice's letter.
finally! and you you.
still never reply.
rahhh. very difficult to reply letter meh.
bah anything buh.
i dont know what to do anymore. ><
PHOTOS! i want photos. xD

it just feels empty without you.

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HAPPY

VALENTINES

DAY!

I LOVE YOU! <3

haha. so gay.
but today is a nice day.
everyone is in a LOVE mood.
its a WARM FUZZY FEELING according to iris.
hahahaha. shes damn funny omg.
anyway its my love confession okay.
to YOU. haha. you rock you know. :x
haha. got flag day on sat in orchard.
been to orchard twice this week alrdy.
i am sian of it. ><
hmm. my dad and cousin going back tmr.
should i go out or should i go send them off.
aiyoh. i shall not waste time thinking about this.
haha. was listening to BEGIN today.
i think the lyrics damn nice. and the tune too.
its quite suitable for valentines. <3

DONG BANG SHIN KI
BEGIN

Micky
It is okay to cry at times when you want to,
Don't be unreasonable.
When a tear dries up, a smile will light up your face.
Look, you are already laughing.

Junsu
The future is confusing
But we are not defeated, we desire courage.

Jaejoong
Every day and night with you,
I take your hand.
Every day every night everywhere,
Now we feel connected and verified.
Now, let the story begin.

Yunho
You turn away to avoid my intentions,
But I like you.
When we are separated, we can share something.
Yes... if we have these feelings.

Junsu
I cannot say "goodbye" to yesterday,
The unsteady hours are wasted.

JaeJoong
Every day and night with you,
The heat and sparks form without cooling down,
Every day every night everywhere,
Now our contact increases,
Now, you and I begin.

Changmin
I am like reality,
(Baby I need your love, need your touch)
(Baby I need your love, need your touch, baby)
In the darkness of the night I am scared,
(You tell me now)
But I'm not alone.

JaeJoong
Every day and night with you,
I take your hand.
Every day every night everywhere,
Now we feel connected and verified.
Now, let the story begin.

Every day and night with you,
The heat and sparks form without cooling down,
Every day every night everywhere,
Now our contact increases,
Now, you and I begin.

yes yes. haha lets begin our love on valentines day.
spending every night and day together.
hahaha its sounds weird. i shouldnt say all this.
IT SOUNDS DAMN WERID. haha. i dont mean anything.
i just like the lyrics. haha.
and i cope this off the net.
the person who posted it says that it might not be correct.
but it sounds correct. haha its just NICE and TOUCHING.
hahaha. the song damn sad luhh.
and i think that junsu's voice sounds sad.
like very very 凄惨. haha. then make everything sadder.
haha. but its nice nice nice. i like. and so does jem!
okay. i am going to watch movie tmr.
with MEILING! haha. our DATE after valentines. xP
oh and rachel they all gave me my birthday present today!
SO EARLY! hahaha. i haven open it.
it look so cute and pretty. i bu she de open. haha.
okay. quite long alrdy. i shall STOP.

rahhh. YOU TELL ME.
HOW. cos you never did.

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boo.
i dont feel happy.
i dont know why.
and i cannot blog cos my cousin wants the comp.
i am suppose to let her use! ><
anyway i am half way thru eunice's letter alrdy.
yay so FAST right. ehhh. haha.
i have to go. RAHHHHHHH.

where is your reply.
you can tell me if you dont want to.
dont keep me hanging. rah.

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HELLO.
haha i am back to post the picture.
anyway my new tv just came today.
and my new modem came too. and someone came and fixed my comp.
so now my cd-rom can use alrdy! haha so exiciting.
ok nvm. and yes georgina. your fan ying damn da can.
and to think i covered ur mouth before that. hahah.
ehhh my new tv rocks. and my old one died. ><
anyway heres the photo. its DAMN CUTE can.














hahaha. its cute cute cute. and funny.
looks like melong right. she made it anyway.
tmr shes going to take a photo with it. hahah.
but i shall not post it here. she will be sad ):
ohman tmr got 3 bio quiz! omg can i die.
rahhh. nvm. wo yao cheng xia qu.

cos no matter what i do it doesnt help.
what can i do. tell me.
can i just totally turn myself around.
can i smoke can i drink can i cut myself
and do everything i am not suppose to.
isnt it easier being bad than good.
CAN I JUST DIE. cos it ends like that.

rubbish luh. i suck can.
i really think its my fault today.
and i think she hate me.
howww. i am sorry.
really. you tell me.
how many apologies do i need to get you back.
or will i never do. i dont know.
i just need something from you to comfort my soul.
WHAT DO YOU WANT. or shld i ask WHAT DO I WANT.
haha i am so irritating. i dont know.
ahhhhh. EH WOMAN. THE GAY THINGY WHO SITS BESIDE ME!
haha you know what. BE HAPPY! smile more comeon.
dont cry anymore. bu yao ku.
i tell you if u cry i will too.
so look at the brighter side.
time will heal. i believe. thought it doesnt heal me.
but i really do hope it heals you.
ni ke yi de! jiayou gay woman. hahahah. xP

what we want is more than words.
we need LOVE. comeon world.
WE NEED LOVE. hahaha. <3ILY

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hello.
charis is beside me now.
shes blogging. go read haha.
oh. shes happy i blogged about her.
her laughter so gay omg.
and shes listening to ONE IN A MILLION.
ehhh wo mei you ting guo.
but she says it nice. okayyy. go listen when theres time. (:
ehhh charis went off to find bee. tsk hahahaha.
i think georgina damn funny.
look at her reaction when she sees XIAH's photo.
so hao xiao omg. like reaction damn big luh.
and i made her jealous cos i showed her nice photos of dbsk.
and i gave her her posters! and gave meiling too.
anyway she ask me to print for her. its 7bucks each eh.
damn ex. and she sent me 4. ohman.
but i am giving her one for free! haha so nice right.
ehhh but the poster is really damn nice.
its made of plastic can. and it waterproof.
the colour rocks too. hmm anyway its just worth the money luh.
ohno. i haven gave her the stickers haha.
i am gaving her stickers also can. and meiling also.
so nice right. i feel like santa. haha.
i gave chengxin and hsinfang sweets also.
HOHO. christmas is over. nvm -.-
everytime i come back from china or
any relatives come from china i end up like santa.
but its nice to see their smiles. its worth it.
haha the bell just rang.
charis isnt back yet. i wonder if she will actually come back.
AHA. peilih dont believe me hahaha.
she doesnt get what i mean. ohman. hahahaha.
oh melong made this damn cute and spastic blue tag thingy today.
i took a nice photo of it. my phone camera rocks man! damn clear.
anyway its so cute. i mms jem cos she want the photo.
i shall upload it when i get home. if i get to use the comp that is.
these few days my parents always make me let my cousin use the comp.
then i dont get to use lorh. so unfair can.
when i go to her house in china she nv let me use. tsk.
haha i hear chengxin talking in some china accent. damn gay omg.
ahhh heart pain. so stupid. MANNN. my heart. ><
okay nvm. i shall bear with it.
rahhh i think my blog damn contentless.
i shall stop here. zai jian le. xP
OH i suddenly remember that i owe eunice letter. omg.
and I LOVE ALINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
haha that was alina herself. shes damn cute omg.
anyway i owe meiling letter too.
oh and that stupid melissawee owes me letter. haha.
i REFUSE to call her melwee. so nan ting. hahaha. xP
okay i shall really go. and JENZI GOT RID OF MY PHONE'S STUPID SHORTCUTS.
THANK YOU JENNNNNNZI CHUA! <3

iamsorry.
i think its my fault.
but i dont know what to do.

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rahhhh.
i think i am so lousy.
cried alot yesterday and today.
and i failed to prove to myself that i am strong.
i still need to try again.
i will prove to myself that i am strong.
but why is everything so unfair.
so what if she is the guest.
then everything that goes wrong will be my fault.
i am suppose to be like a maid and take care of her?
and i dont even have the right to have one word of complaint.
so now heres my punishment. they treat me as if i dont exist.
fine then. i shall be strong and live without existence to them.
but why is everything MY FAULT. this sucks.

haha. yay i finished ranting.
i decided that i shall not care about all this.
i just hope that friday come soon.
cos then my dad and cousin will be flying back.
then i will be free! haha. i miss my other cousin.
shes so much cuter and nicer.
but actually what my mum said is correct.
the problem doesnt lie with my cousin.
its lies with my dad.
rahhhhh nevermind. i shall not care. lala.
tmr got school. ohno. i missed sch for 3days.
seems like alot has been going on.
ahhh homework. and i missed some quizzes.
is that good or bad. haha. bu zhi dao.
oh i saw DBSK's album at HMV. its $52.90 for ONE CD.
omg. wei shen me na me gui. mannn. i need money now too.
maybe i shall wait until end of feb and go sembawang and find.
it will be cheaper. hmm. i am quite bored now.
i realised i left alot of homework in school.
so now i cannot do anything about it. have to do it by tmr.
i shall go and read my book now. its nice. haha.

no matter what i will not let my smile fade.
cos i know thats how you want me to be.
just like how i dont want yours to fade.

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HELLO.
haha.
ehhh thank you everyone.
i am all well and healthy now.
haha all thanks to you all.
and of course all that medicine. yuck.
heh. anyway went to malaysia for the whole cny.
ehhhh it was fun. i shall not go into details.
ahhh i missed sch for 3 days.
ohno. all that homework.
oh and I GOT A NEW PHONE!!! yay.
my old one offcially died.
ehhh the new one is nokia 5610.
haha jem is jealous. lalala.
oh heres a photo by the way.





























hee. its nice right.
but i dont like the way the shortcuts are set.
and cannot change. eeyer.
ehhh anyway i shall go.
got alot of things to do.
thank you people! xD

imissyou.
yet again.

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HELLO.
haha i feel loved today.
i dont even know how many times i said thank you.
i shall say it for one last time.
THANK YOU EVERYONE!
thank you 406 for all the "HAPPYBIRTHDAY"s
thank you jem charis melissawee lydia
thank you georgina jenzi meiling
thank you eunice
thank you melissaong joy elizabeth
thank you sunran
and thank you everyone else for wishing me HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
i really feel very loved for once in my life haha. <3!

THANK YOUUU

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