i'm so tired but this is a MUST.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE HOWON! (:

he's someone i really love! :D
BEST-est dancer there is!
And COOLEST rapper ever!
haha. like him max max :DDD
and not to forget respect. respect him for being so hardworking.
HOYA HWAITING :D

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just finished a drama that's got me pouring tears.
the ending was such a beautiful one.
i don't get why i am pouring tears though.
just like i don't get whats wrong with me recently.

broke down in the middle of bugis.
threw my bag and my phone on the floor in the library.
trying to get away from my friends.
and there's no reason why.
I've just given up. given up on people whom i think doesn't care.
or at least i haven't been shown that i'm cared for.
sick and tired of seeking attention and care for myself.
if they don't bother, then i shan't too.
i wont take the initiative anymore. so tired.

and jealousy makes me wanna kill. literally.
cant gather enough courage to ask that embarrassing question.
moreover i cant believe i'm jealous.
whats up with me.

i cant believe my emotions overflowed from my heart.
just like how the tears overflowed from my eyes.

should i try to move further?
or should i stay until i cant take anymore cuts on my heart.
i had to face all these since sec 3.
really wonder how many scars there are already.
and do they even notice? guess not.

but no matter what, i still thankful for them.
for whatever they've done.
although it hurts more than i can remember.
guess its a process of growing up.

// Run for you I wake up
Love for you I wake up
A song for you I wake up
Right now Wake up //

a nice song and lyrics from Shut Up Flower Boy Band.
the pretty drama I've just finished.

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its so tiring.
and i really don't get it.

i should just give up and not waste my time on some things.
i shall. shall just turn into a boring friend who answers normal things.
though that'll be no fun, but i wont step on anyone's toes.
its safer that way.

sorry but i give up.
i'm seriously fed up.

have no time for all these.
and i'm tired as hell.

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Paris.
its the one place that took my heart.

every time i'm sad or upset, i'll look at this place. this ever so beautiful place.
it'll give me some hope, some light to lift my spirits up.
i'll visit this place someday. that day when i buy a DSLR with my own pay.

Paris.
its often know as the City of Love.

its is filled with dazzling lights and it looks romantic.
maybe that's how it got called the city of love.
looking at it brings me back to secondary school.
where i started loving Eiffel tower because of DBSK.
its such a weird reason that i didn't expect my love for Paris to last.

Paris.
its a place for lovers.

being thru many many ups & downs, i thought things will get easier.
somehow it turned out that forgetting is still so difficult.
absence makes the heart grow fonder.
but seeing them once again just makes us miss them even more.
just when we thought we had got over them.
things just don't work the way we want it to.
we'll have to spend the next few months trying again.
and i believe this time it'll be even harder.
i hope i wont be too heavily affected.
school is getting so busy in march. i cant afford to be like this.

hang on.
i'll do it. no matter what it takes.

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