wahhh.
i'm hurt.
pain pain.
even looking at my favorite place now doesn't help.
but what can i do about it ))):


wooh its been like 2 months since i blogged?
and a year has past! happy 2012! hope its a good year for everyone.
i've got lots and lots to get off my chest.
bear with me! its to payback for this 2 months! heh.

About the Comm Issue:
i am really speechless about this.
what did i even do to get me into this rubbish.
its so unreasonable i cant even comprehend this.
pushing me around doubting my abilities?
then why ask me to join in the first place.
i didnt even volunteer. i was asked to.
so what kind of crap am i getting now.
oh so you dont lack people now so you are pushing ppl away?
if its so then i'll just say this comm will fail badly.
sorry to those in the comm who are actually nice.
but too bad most of them aren't.
i can find places where i am needed.
dont think i am that not capable of all these.
its not as if all these is very difficult.
i dont see why such easy things can be made so troublesome anyway.
sheesh. whatever.
i'm angry. i'm upset. i wanna cry but i shan't.
cos this doesn't even deserve my tears.

To somebody whom I owe an explanation:
i said i will blog it means i will.
kinda think that blogging is easier for me.
so sorry then :\
but you said you wont respond anything to this.
promise kay. cos i bet you wont agree.
anw to explain why i felt disappointed...
its just like i was thinking about it these few days.
its like you can move off by yourself, you can just go for lessons and everything by yourself, its like you dont even need us friends. i guess some people are just that independent.
but then i was thinking if she doesn't need us, then why should i be so dependent on her.
so i just feel that maybe, maybe i should be the same.
maybe i dont need to always sms first, maybe i dont have to approach so much.
maybe i just needed to be less dependent and pull myself away.

but then again those are just what i thought.
i am not angry or whatsoever. i was just trying hard not to care so much.
that day i was still telling hl. our clique like san3 le.
maybe people in uni are suppose to be like that.
they are suppose to move on their own more than anything.
but it seems to me that everyone is moving their own way.
i feel unwanted, unneeded. idk what to do.
i need friends. idk if it cos of my horoscope.
i need friends more than anything else.
that is why i felt so unhappy these days.
yeah thats was all that went thru my mind.
kinda long to fit into an sms.
i like to blog cos i can type A LOT.

i guess if i say so much, you can respond if you want to.
its only fair right?

okay! i am done!
sorry for all the whine and crap everyone.
but i feel much better now.
i shall go pack bag for tmr!
goodnights :DDD

and if i am sad, if i wanna cry, will you come and comfort me?

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