sat night's HTHT with twin was the best! :D
was on the phone for almost 3 hours?
haven't done that since sec 1 i think.
my pri school classmates used to call and talk haha.

anw i realised that me and twin have like ENDLESS things to talk about.
wah idk where did all the things come from leh.
maybe cos we are DAMN alike and we tell each other everything (almost i think)?
haha we are alike EXCEPT for our taste in guys! heh.
our taste is really... quite different i guess.
haha so sorry to Mr CT'S-BOYFRIEND.
but yeah actually i didnt realise we were so alike till this HTHT.
we have the same problem with guys! HAHAHAHA.
okay maybe its not a problem luh. idk whats that called.
she'll know what i mean luh hor~

hmm i really think i need to HTHT with twin often. haha.
sharing problems helps lor. i have lots to learn from her too.
not in that aspect though! seriously. haha.
i realised i can be open minded about it and not care.
but i will never behave in any way like that. heh.
accepting it and behaving in the same way isn't the same.
still, its good to listen from her and know about it luh. haha.

anw i am really bored recently.
keep staying at home and doing nothing!
so long never go out with friends, sing k and watch movie liao.
HEY FRIENDS! do i still have any left?
ask me out or something leh. dont be so mean and abandon me )):
uni life is not interesting one hmph. and i dont stay in a hall somemore.
wonder how my other girls are doing. haha.
i wanna meet everyone soon ((:
aish but its 2am (2AM!) now.
lets talk about meeting another time!

ciao!

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i have like one thousands thoughts in my head now so i really dont know
where to start or what to say.
i guess what twin told me today really did shock me a bit?
and i THOUGHT i was okay with it.
but really luh. i think the pace is a bit too quick yeah. haha.

anw, dance today was really... really... basic. haha.
we "bounced" for the whole lesson?
other than the super tiring YOGA-like warm-up omg.
i think its really good to learn the basics but twin didnt think so.
and learning the basics made me realised one huge fact.
its making me quite depressed right now. and that is:
I AM NOT MADE TO/SUITABLE FOR DANCING AT ALL.
yeah. i finally realised why i always look awkward doing all dance moves.
no matter how hard i tried to do it with more energy or correctly,
i just dont look as nice as others? i just look weird.
so i just concluded that my build and stuff is just not fit for dancing.
even my mum agrees. hmm )):
maybe i should just go do something else right. D:
i wonder why no one ever told me this until my mum did just now.
shall really give it some serious thought before MJ auditions hmm :\

urgh lets move on from this.
so i have been thinking about this for quite awhile now.
i realised that i like my jc friends much better than the uni ones.
its like my jc friends are so much more on the same level as me.
its so much easier to communicate with twin and horsey!
and i can tell them almost anything without getting trashy reactions from them.
or maybe its just that i haven't met anyone whom i can clique with in uni yet.
i am really going to join a lot of stuff and meet more people (:

and yeah cos i treasure twin and horsey a lot, i am kind of protective of them.
i really dont want them to get hurt! (i think they know what i mean).
that's why i am the MAMA! haha.
take care of them like some mother.
hope you two dont find me bothersome!
you two are my really good friends you know! :D

hmm i guess i have made most of my points.
still got lots of stuff on my mind but i cant type them out.
its okay! there is always next time! haha.
annyeong~ (PS i am feeling much better today!) :D

just realised that its been 3 years but i still remember everything so clearly.
i wonder why.

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i am like perma like this now )):
3 days liao leh omg!
missed MJ open class and 2 days of school cos of flu D:
and i am still not recovering?
even if i get better i shouldn't dance tmr else i will never recover even by next week!
really need to just rest and let it recover asap.
if i over-exert myself then next week also wont recover.
then GG! cos MJ auditions is on next thurs!
its currently the most important upcoming event.
so i shall sacrifice everything else for that!
which means my dance lesson tmr too )):
but i am still going to watch! can learn by watching quite well too :D
urgh. flu flu go away! dont ever ever come again!
(and the cough too. the cough is getting worse!) D:
okay i shall go rest! goodnight :D

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i know, this is KPOP related again.
but i HAVE TO say this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY G-DRAGON!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWON LEADER!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWON JIYONG!

i love him 100%.
and on top of that, i respect him 200%.
seriously he is like the greatest, most talented person I've seen.
he is truly my IDOL! :D

saranghaeyo jiyong oppa!

#itsGDay

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eh?
its sudden but now both of my best friends in jc are attached.
i shall just stay by myself from now onwards,
since they wont have time for me anymore.
i guess this is what you call efficiency?
since we have only started school for less than a month.
idk if my taste is really weird or what?
but i dont like both the guys.
i dont dislike them. just that not my type.
both of them are not someone i will like haha oops.

hmm i shall prepare for life by myself.
and also cos i dont have damn good friends in uni yet.
i mean i have lots of friends in uni but all not close :\
stealing the hash-tag from my twitter friends,
#foreveralone )):

byebye my BFFs! )):

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omg i love this line in INFINITE's BE MINE.
although i think the translation is a bit off.
but yeah you get the meaning luh.
and its damn sweet.
like the part about covering up her scars.
woah i want a boyfriend like that too! omg.

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whee i went for dance at O School with CT today.
idk why but it was DAMN TIRING.
aching everywhere now.
i think its cos i haven't danced/exercised for 3 weeks straight.
have been a lazy pig and slacking away at home.
i need to start dancing once more to start the momentum!
signed up for a course there... hope to improve along.
anw the open class today made me realised how extremely LOUSY i am.
seriously need to work very hard on dancing now.
i need to improve super a lot urgh.
me and twin are gonna help each other out ((:
and i really need a big mirror at home idc!
i am really very serious about dancing this time round.
already so old and haven't been able to work on what i like.
must do well in dancing from uni onwards!
HWAITING! ((:

anw me and twin are gonna self learn BE MINE.
its like super cool luh seriously.
must try to be cool like them! :D
*fan chants: SARANGHAEYO INFINITE!*

that's all for the dance post today!
more dance posts to come when i start class at O School! :D

*edit edit*
(cos i just read CT's blog so i must respond haha)

Actually I am very happy that i got twin into dancing too!
cos now i have a friend to dance with :D
all my other friends aren't my type of people so its quite sad.
so glad i have twin :DDD
and *cough cough* i cannot understand why twin thinks i am good?
idk but i always look at myself dancing in the mirror and realise how ugly i look D:
and its like everything i do dont look nice like the instructor one. hmm.
the only thing i think i am good at is remembering the steps haha.
yeah so i am twin's portal dance hard disk! :D
guess i have to go get a big mirror asap so me and twin can prac dance tgt.
since her room only got that small mirror at her roommate's side :\
okay off to Ikea when i have time!
shoulder aching liao. annyeong! :D

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have been listening to 2NE1's new song UGLY quite frequently.
set me thinking quite a lot seriously.
when i heard the title i thought it will be about someone mean and bad,
so they describe him as ugly or something.
after i heard the song then i realised they are singing about themselves.
not literally luh but yeah you know...
yeah then i realised that this song is really meaningful and stuff.
its like hinting at how the world sees this beauty and beautiful thing.
and also about how people see themselves.
its like people always think that they are not pretty or good looking enough
so they will have little confidence in themselves.
this is what the song sings about but i think the message they wanna bring across is that everyone sometimes faces set-backs and so they will loose confidence and so think that
they are not good enough.
but this shouldn't make them loose confidence in themselves totally and just think that they are ugly or imperfect or useless or stuff.
i think that they are using this lyrics to encourage people to think that they are pretty or good looking and to have more self confidence.
i mean, if even 2NE1 thinks that they are 'ugly' at times, then its normal for us to think that at times too right? but we shouldn't just live with that mindset.
we should try our best to make things better every time.
okay i am really naggy but i really like the meaning i got from the song.
hope that is really what they are putting across ((:
heres the lyrics in English! listen to it. its nice.

//
[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh~

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh~

[DARA] Why am I this ugly?
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect.
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror.

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now.
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape.
This world is full of lies.

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily.
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you.

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you.
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me.

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern.
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out.
This world is full of lies.

[CL] I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone, I’m all alone.

There is no such thing as warmth.
There is no one by my side.

All alone
I’m all alone, I’m all alone.
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth.
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me.

[CL] I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.
//

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LOVE!!! ((:

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