omg. what happened to you mayan!
and dont need to sorry me luh.
i am SUPPOSED to have gotten over it remember?
though i think i am not that successful.
why is everyone so screwed up recently ):

i wanna talk to you ):

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got kaigong tmr! and the attendance is with me ):
evolution is funny apparently. esp when priscilla talks abt it.
and the new maths lecturer super interesting haha.
i totally found my enemy omg.

i really cant understand what you are thinking.
why do i keep failing in telling myself to give up.


i cant rmb what i wanted to talk about already.
really need to sleep soon to get up tmr.
didnt know i appeared so emo to everyone today.
sorry i couldnt hide it well. there wont be a next time.
everything will be buried well in my heart.

i just need someone to talk to.
where are my someones.

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recently there are so many rubbish happening in my life.
got 2 nice (old) songs i suddenly like idk why.
nice and emo songs that keeps playing in my mind!

你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点怎自私的占有

想做你不变的恋人
想做你一世的牵挂
想做的不只是朋友

i guess i like this song cos the lyrics describes what i am feeling.
exactly what i am feeling now.

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

this is the first MJ song i have ever downloaded onto my comp.
idk why i suddenly like it a lot. just heard it playing somewhere.

arghhh. i feel like just staying home and crying.

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rahrahrah. life is getting harder and i am finding myself not coping.
why is everything getting so demanding.
huangcheng is getting stressful and i am neglecting my studies abit.
i shall work hard (:

there are like 1000 things i want to complain about.
but i cant tell them to the whole world here ):
really need to find someone who can understand me to talk to.
but its hard. i guess everyone is busy and messy now.
i will find someone soon before i have any mental breakdowns.
all this is killing me.


i just need some light in my life.

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their high school is like our JC yeah.
they are nineteen now. going to attend University! heh heh.
hope the 2 boys cope well with studies and their freaking busy schedules!

anyways rah to my stupid body D:
wanted to go watch CNY performances and POP luh.
then i woke up with a stupid fever from yesterday.
as if yesterday wasnt enough. almost died during bio in the audi luh.
then went for huazhuang with a freaking headache ):
whats wrong with my health recently rah.
its like CNY and my body is failing DDD:

i really dont know what you are thinking,
and i am so tired of all these.
wanna call it quits. but can i?

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is cos they really make me happy thats why i always go crazy over them.
i think without them i gave up on myself already.
these fews days have been a DISASTER i tell you.
i am so thankful SHINee came. they gave me the motivation to survive!
cos i wanted to see them so i hang on heh.
but the days after they left was hard. i dont know how i managed.
i guess i didnt do it very well cos everyone thought i was stressed.
no i was not and AM not. just not in a damn good mood lorh.
yes emo. whatever you want to call that.

ohwell. i guess no matter what life has to go on.
and i am going to continue to put up my strong front.
will look very happy everyday. as how i usually am.
so happy that no one can tell whats inside.
i think that shld work luh. at least infront of the juniors.
cos tmr is HUANGCHENG ORIENTATION!
so i must be happy and be a nice cheerful senior :DDD
i believe so i can! hwaiting everyone ((:
oh yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN :D

its getting weirder and weirder.
whats wrong. i really wanna know.

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okay now for pouring my soul...

today sucked. seriously. it was like terrible luh.
i am not very stressed about that luh. just very pissed.
recently got so much things to stress about. idk how to survive alrdy.
and yeah. the attitude is just bad. and they treat us like crap.
what have i done to deserve all these sucky treatment.
aint i a human too. i having feelings luh. i felt so hurt today.
but i have to admit maybe i am in the wrong too.
though i dont really know what i have done wrong -.-
scared about the meeting later at 3pm. what will they say :\
maybe i shouldnt think too much.

going to breakdown. soon.


no s&c today. too tired. bye.

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