rahhhh.
i think i am so lousy.
cried alot yesterday and today.
and i failed to prove to myself that i am strong.
i still need to try again.
i will prove to myself that i am strong.
but why is everything so unfair.
so what if she is the guest.
then everything that goes wrong will be my fault.
i am suppose to be like a maid and take care of her?
and i dont even have the right to have one word of complaint.
so now heres my punishment. they treat me as if i dont exist.
fine then. i shall be strong and live without existence to them.
but why is everything MY FAULT. this sucks.

haha. yay i finished ranting.
i decided that i shall not care about all this.
i just hope that friday come soon.
cos then my dad and cousin will be flying back.
then i will be free! haha. i miss my other cousin.
shes so much cuter and nicer.
but actually what my mum said is correct.
the problem doesnt lie with my cousin.
its lies with my dad.
rahhhhh nevermind. i shall not care. lala.
tmr got school. ohno. i missed sch for 3days.
seems like alot has been going on.
ahhh homework. and i missed some quizzes.
is that good or bad. haha. bu zhi dao.
oh i saw DBSK's album at HMV. its $52.90 for ONE CD.
omg. wei shen me na me gui. mannn. i need money now too.
maybe i shall wait until end of feb and go sembawang and find.
it will be cheaper. hmm. i am quite bored now.
i realised i left alot of homework in school.
so now i cannot do anything about it. have to do it by tmr.
i shall go and read my book now. its nice. haha.

no matter what i will not let my smile fade.
cos i know thats how you want me to be.
just like how i dont want yours to fade.

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