cried. twice. finally. after holding back for so long. cant hold it any more. it was so horrible. the tears flow down my cheek down my neck and into my shirt. i cant control my emotions anymore. emotionally unstable ba. haven recover from my depression yet. wanted to cut myself to see blood. i like the colour of blood. only blood. wanted to tear down my house. wanted to jump from my house. wanted to eat sleeping pills. wanted just to leave this world. heaven or even hell is a better place for me i think. maybe i am more needed there. who knows. shown smiles today. laughed. so fake. maybe no one could tell. but it was acted like in any drama show. acted. planned. this is getting worse everyday. hope someone can cure me. maybe i just need alittle bit more care. alittle bit more concern. alittle bit more attention. maybe all i want is just you by my side. all my friends to be by my side. dont leave me ever alone. please. i really need someone.
oh ya. today melwee gave me this piece of paper coz ytd i was sad oso. she is so sweet. so cute. so nice lor. yes i still love melwee. charis was sweet too. she keep smiling at me. yes i still love charis too. maybe showing alittle bit more care for my friends make them feel better. yes. it does. heres the paper melwee gave me.

FRONT:


BACK:


i am in no mood to study for ih. i will fail it. no point. saddening. shall go and find something to do.
bye.

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