memories.

whiny the pooh~

2012-01-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

wahhh.
i'm hurt.
pain pain.
even looking at my favorite place now doesn't help.
but what can i do about it ))):

wooh its been like 2 months since i blogged?
and a year has past! happy 2012! hope its a good year for everyone.
i've got lots and lots to get off my chest.
bear with me! its to payback for this 2 months! heh.

About the Comm Issue:
i am really speechless about this.
what did i even do to get me into this rubbish.
its so unreasonable i cant even comprehend this.
pushing me around doubting my abilities?
then why ask me to join in the first place.
i didnt even volunteer. i was asked to.
so what kind of crap am i getting now.
oh so you dont lack people now so you are pushing ppl away?
if its so then i'll just say this comm will fail badly.
sorry to those in the comm who are actually nice.
but too bad most of them aren't.
i can find places where i am needed.
dont think i am that not capable of all these.
its not as if all these is very difficult.
i dont see why such easy things can be made so troublesome anyway.
sheesh. whatever.
i'm angry. i'm upset. i wanna cry but i shan't.
cos this doesn't even deserve my tears.

To somebody whom I owe an explanation:
i said i will blog it means i will.
kinda think that blogging is easier for me.
so sorry then :\
but you said you wont respond anything to this.
promise kay. cos i bet you wont agree.
anw to explain why i felt disappointed...
its just like i was thinking about it these few days.
its like you can move off by yourself, you can just go for lessons and everything by yourself, its like you dont even need us friends. i guess some people are just that independent.
but then i was thinking if she doesn't need us, then why should i be so dependent on her.
so i just feel that maybe, maybe i should be the same.
maybe i dont need to always sms first, maybe i dont have to approach so much.
maybe i just needed to be less dependent and pull myself away.

but then again those are just what i thought.
i am not angry or whatsoever. i was just trying hard not to care so much.
that day i was still telling hl. our clique like san3 le.
maybe people in uni are suppose to be like that.
they are suppose to move on their own more than anything.
but it seems to me that everyone is moving their own way.
i feel unwanted, unneeded. idk what to do.
i need friends. idk if it cos of my horoscope.
i need friends more than anything else.
that is why i felt so unhappy these days.
yeah thats was all that went thru my mind.
kinda long to fit into an sms.
i like to blog cos i can type A LOT.

i guess if i say so much, you can respond if you want to.
its only fair right?

okay! i am done!
sorry for all the whine and crap everyone.
but i feel much better now.
i shall go pack bag for tmr!
goodnights :DDD

and if i am sad, if i wanna cry, will you come and comfort me?

its been long!

2011-11-30T01:19:00.001+08:00

soooo long since i've been here.
busy studying *ermherm* for exams.
tmr is the last day for me.
two papers in a day. not sleeping tonight.

will be back soon (:

the water bottle;

2011-11-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

水瓶座

也许在很多人眼中，水瓶就是个不知天高地厚的，敢爱敢恨，没有一丝烦恼的星座，可以为了他们所追求的自我生活，而从来不在意世俗的眼光，也可以为了心中柏拉图式的爱情，而天马行空的大胆想象，随便别人怎么说，他们依旧我行我素的，只要快乐就好，可谁曾想到过他们心中从来就没有说出来的难过心情。

越是表现的什么都不会在乎，整天开心得不得了，就越有可能把痛都藏在心里，水瓶就是这样的，因为理性自重，虽然反传统，却也会止于冲动，知道什么是该做，什么是不该做的，因为重友谊，愿意费心的为朋友排忧解难，当一个称职的被倾诉对象，因为很多事情说出来就会舒服好多。

但是，如此慷慨大方的水瓶，却不愿意把心中的不爽和心灰意冷告诉别人，哪怕是最要好的朋友，最多也只是很肤浅的提到，但不会细说。

并不是有意把自己的心事藏起来，而是他们真的不知道要如何说，从哪说起，只好不断的压抑自己难过的情绪，就好像是不闻不问，假装自己不知道也就没事了，不说不去倾诉，也就以为一点都不痛，但这都不是真的，一个人默默的流泪就是最好的证据，可以压抑住不表现出来，但压抑不住受伤的眼泪，心也在微微的颤抖着。

this really hit the spot man.
almost cried when reading this )):

omo omo )):

2011-10-31T22:37:00.002+08:00

水瓶女
不要看水瓶座的女人平常多么的自主有个性、好像任何事她们都不放在眼里。但是当她们一旦陷入了爱情中，就像跌到无底深渊一样，无可自拔。因为水瓶女的心很难定下来，所以一旦她们真心的爱上一个人时，她们会把原来的自己抛掉，改变成对方想要的样子，所有重心都以对方为主，变的只为对方而活。也正因为如此，水瓶女们对于感情的创伤需要很久才能平复。不过她们在外人面前还是会表现的若无其事，她们不想让别人看到自己狼狈的一面，因为那会有失她们潇洒的个性。但其实她们的内心正在因为伤口而疼痛。不过这也才符合水瓶女原本的天性。

aigoo this is so sad but its so true so its even sadder )):
sad for myself cos i totally agree! )):

break, make. hate.

2011-10-26T20:05:00.001+08:00

after giving all my heart and soul, how do you expect me to say goodbye with a smile.

i love you. i hate you.
i hate you. i love you.
i hate you.

no. i cant ever hate you.

i can literally feel my heart aching.

whatever is wrong with me these days.
hope i'll survive this this time.

아파.

2011-10-14T14:57:00.002+08:00

yesterday was like hell.
especially cos i really really didnt expect that to happen.
i know i'm in the wrong. but i think its not only me.
i had my reasons. why dont you understand.

fever, flu, arguments and crying the entire night really dont go well together.
its the first time in years that i've cried so badly because i argued with someone.
it opened up my most painful wound from last time and i cant recover even until now.
i really didnt know that wound can still hurt so much.
i dont know how to face her on sunday now. with all these memories from the past.

maybe i need some love and care.
or maybe i just need some time alone.
i dont know. i'm so lost right now.
can history not repeat itself over and over again.
i dont know if i can take it anymore.

아파.

up down left right; JUMP!

2011-10-05T01:29:00.000+08:00

its like when you talk to a rather good looking guy, your heart beats faster and you feel kinda nervous. you dont really dare to make a lot of eye contact too.
too bad you aren't really fated with him so nvm then :\

haha today's chingay dance killed my knees.
keep kneeling on the floor then my knees blue black now.
next time remember to wear long pants.
but then the dance seems QUITE cool.
quite only luh. not VERY cos its not really the hiphop kinda dance that i do.
oh wells we just started learning so who knows.
and our instructor is tall and not bad looking! haha eye candy during dance not bad :D
oh plus our group really quite fun and stuff so i like chingay for now! haha.
hmm thats all for my updates now i guess.
i cant say too much one i think. heh heh.
tmr got tutorial. needa go sleep soon.
goodnights :D

ps: looking forward to Thursday's dp bash with twin :D

C-hingay! (:

2011-10-04T00:08:00.001+08:00

woohoo!
went for chingay welcome tea today.
i was in group 2! :DDD
played stupid games with my group haha.
the guys were damn funny.
and we had lame convos and stuff and we just all laughed together!
nice to meet a group of fun and exciting people :D
first prac starts tmr! YAY cant wait to DANCE ((:
i think every sat just isn't enough. finally got sth else now.
and i found people who live near me plus wanna learn hiphop at o school!
yay got friend liao if i wanna join hiphop beg 2 (:

okay i kinda got a test tmr and i need to study.
more about the dance tmr! :D
cant wait to see our COOL instructors too ((:

lalalalala;

2011-09-29T19:27:00.000+08:00

十二星座的迷人特質:

白羊座 : 活潑可愛，充滿活力，擁有明朗的個性，常掛著燦爛的笑容

金牛座 : 細心體貼，有耐力，對美的品味很高，有著一股獨特的氣質

雙子座 : 機警，才思敏銳，為人浪漫，善解人意，說話技巧高，面面俱圓

巨蟹座 : 有同情心，熱愛家庭，善於安慰對方及加以關懷，很喜歡小朋友

獅子座 : 爽朗大方，不拘小節，全神貫注工作是最充滿活力的時候

處女座 : 聰明伶俐，做事有板有眼，講求原則，遵守制約，柔中帶剛

天秤座 : 愛和平，為人理性，懂得體諒別人，做事公正，對美的品味很高

天蠍座 : 神秘感性，有一股難以言喻的魅力，在對方未提出要求的已能施以援手

射手座 : 幽默風趣，熱情大方，笑口常開，與他一起會很快樂及喜悅

山羊座 : 謹慎，穩重可靠而誠實，做事投入，對人對事都有一股內斂的熱誠

水瓶座 : 開朗，講道理，活潑風趣，很有語言天份

雙魚座 : 溫柔體貼，文靜，做事細心，浪漫又感性

haha not bad its quite accurate for me i think.
what best describes you? is it true? haha.

rainbow of colours ((:

2011-09-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

从喜欢颜色看你的性格:

① 偏爱灰色者：性格怯懦依赖心
② 偏爱黑色者：性格内向，心态阴郁
③ 偏爱白色者：个性开朗单纯
④ 偏爱紫色者：谨行慎行喜思索
⑤ 偏爱黄色者：个性积极爱冒险
⑥ 偏爱蓝色者：明朗诚实，处事中庸
⑦ 偏爱绿色者：做事稳重，值得信任
⑧ 偏爱红色者：活泼热情，大胆新潮

Haha I like black&red combination!
so what am i? 性格内向，心态阴郁 plus 活泼热情，大胆新潮?
haha in the end i am just contradictory isn't it. lol.

what are YOU then? :DDD
aww and i realise dont have orange )):so yellow plus red then? haha.

coolpix!

2011-09-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

yay! chenyi got a new camera :D
mini DSLR! Nikon Coolpix L120 ((:
its nice. the pictures taken are like dslr like that.
and its much small and more like a digital cam ((:
can SPAM photos when i go out next time liao.
hope to bring better concert photos with it next time!

got homework to do.
tata! :D

ps: heres a photo taken with it ((:

paradise;

2011-09-26T10:55:00.002+08:00

omg i just HAD TO post this!
yet another nice song with a different feeling again!
their vocals in this song are damn nice ((:
its like an INFINITE i have not really heard before.
amazing transformation :D
LOVE INFINITE HoyaWoohyunSungyeolMyungsooSungjongSungyuDongwoo!
hope this song can get number ONE again!
they deserve it! :D

and i'll end this with their comeback photo!
they look damn cool! :DDD

okay i'll update another post about other stuff when i have time.
bye.

exceptforyourheart,

2011-09-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

haha i like this pictureee. agrees with it ((:

anw haven't been blogging much recently.
nothing much has been happening in my life basically.
just a tiny update to keep this space alive.
i wonder who actually reads my blog :\
nvm. its a journal i kept for myself anw.

oh yeah there's HSS Main Comm Investiture tmr.
and Sub Comm have to go. lol?
its like nothing to do with us at all -.-
nvm go and know my comm people.
until now haven't met them yet oops haha.
then there's a test on thurs sian.
i shall mug hard and do well! ((:

yeah and cos twin neh go for dance last sat, i was too lazy to go too.
twin are you gonna ps me again this sat?
quite sian of being ps-ed already actually.
cos it kinda happened SO MANY times :\
if you are gonna sign up for so many stuff and put this at the lowest priority
then we shouldn't have signed up for it? waste of money again.
aishhh nvm. and i need to HTHT with you soon.
got SERIOUS stuff to ask for your opinions hmm.
your recess week this week, dont tell me you cmi to meet me at all )):
i will cry and disown you as my twin )):
haha no luh. but you get it lol.

okay i kinda need to go study now.
urgh life sucks when this kind of things comes in.
cant wait for recess week! :DDD

annyeong! ((:

ps: and thanks to twin now i am addicted to STEP by KARA.
haha okay its not bad i shall try learning the dance :D

its a SHINee World! ((:

2011-09-14T00:05:00.001+08:00

i dont understand why i keep forgetting to post about this.
this is like the most important thing that happened this year luh!

so yeah you know one...
its SHINee World Concert!!! :DDD

dont wanna nag and post damn a lot so yeah main points:
x They are really ANGELS! flying in the sky and wearing all white ((:

x All of their solo performances were AMAZING! :D
x Taemin did a jazz kind of song for solo. Added a damn COOL dance break in the middle. and his singing is improving a lot a lot. He is beginning to sound like Jonghyun. Its a good thing!
x Jonghyun's solo performance shocked me at first. He sang with a damn high voice for like 90% of the song. His voice is just SO SUPER NICE (((: love it!
x Key did the song MY FIRST KISS with Taemin as the girl! Pretty girl Taem and Diva Key is WIN WIN WIN! haha. super like the performance! entertainment 200%! :D
x MINHO! i nearly died at his solo performance omg!!! i forgot the song he did luh but it was some fast english song that he danced to! his dancing improve a lot leh! and he did it jaejoong, yunho and siwon style. haha wearing a suit jacket without anything inside! seriously can die luh. his abs nice! omg. not that i being some pervy fan girl but really yeah seriously. *faints*
x Onew's solo performance was WOAH~ totally. he sang some Pavarotti song! the super talented boy with the nice voice! heh. and and he came towards our side and smiled so brightly we just all melted omg!

x LUCIFER was amazing as well. all of them rised up to the ceiling, wore laser gloves and waved it around. damn cool luh please.

So yeah the concert was SUPER LOVE!
cant wait for them to come back again!!! :DDD

And that day went back to school for MAF too!
met so many people i haven't seen for SO LONG.
so happy to meet all of them. guess it will be hard to see them anymore :\

then after MAF went for overnight K SESSION with twin's friends.
2 of them are my friends too luh. haha.
the rest i really dk. was so awkward at first but it got better.
had lots of fun singing and listening to people sing nicely haha.
ate supper with them too. quite interesting luh! heh.

okay then i went back to being a SUPER tired girl for these 2 days due to severe lack of sleep since overnight K Session. still tired now. finally one day can sleep a bit earlier so i shall go now.
GOODNIGHT :D

PS: twin i tell you stuff when i see you. really is some small issue only! :D

stopping here.

2011-09-09T14:17:00.002+08:00

i really wanna give up.
can i?
it doesn't even matter if i do it right?

MAF/SHINee WORLD

2011-09-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

rrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
no maf again! )):
and cant believe i forgot SHINee World Concert :\

anw, INFINITE won on MCountdown again!
2ND win already!
finally!!! they are shining their own light and getting the credit :D

i was right in believing them and i am going to continue to believe them!
always, till forever ((:

oh yeah and i went for HSS sub comm interview today.
dont think recreation/sports comm will be a problem.
though i regret putting rec as my first choice cos i wanna join sports comm more :|
but its okay. as long as i am in (i think can get in one) then can liao.
will have points OMG YAY!
means maybe HALL next year? HOPEFULLY!
really wanna stay in hall and join the activities :D

okay tired liao.
goodnight.

roller-coaster ride.

2011-09-06T01:23:00.002+08:00

i failed )):
expected it but still kind of sad.
shall wait for next year :\

money, love, fashion, fame.

2011-09-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

wooh!
yesterday's shopping session with twin was WIN man!
haven't done that with her for quite long already.
had super much fun! haha.
although queue-ing for the fitting room at H&M was D:
haha in the end twin bought LOTS of clothes.
i am thrifty so i didnt buy a lot but still got myself some stuff ((:
then at the cashier she totally went: this is more tiring than dance.
haha lol i have to agree though.
but maybe its cos we walked whole afternoon plus had dance luh.

oh and dance yesterday was a bit more interesting haha.
the routine was easy but not bad i guess?
next week twin not going so i have to go alone )):

btw, i realised that uncontactable people are SUPER irritating.
especially when there's something i need to talk about.
urgh. 3 days and sms no reply, Facebook no reply?
do you just not want to talk to me man. wth.

aishhh i've got nothing much to blog about actually.
shall just end it here :\
^^

and i realised that i do like him much better.
not good D:

someday;

2011-09-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

twin is gonna say i am posting KPOP stuff again.
but the lyrics to this song is just too beautiful.
i teared up and had to try not to cry.
its so meaningful and the song is really nice too.
PLEASE WATCH IT!!! really!
and read along the lyrics.
love it! ((:

life is a mess.

2011-09-02T00:35:00.003+08:00

omg OMG!
okay this post isn't going to be KPOP related but let me say sth first.
CONGRATS TO INFINITE!!! :D
FINALLY WON AFTER 1+++ YEARS OF DEBUT! :DDD
seriously looking at the efforts they put in, they deserve FAR MORE than this.

this picture is really damn nice! it "speaks a thousand words"! ((:
all their sweat and tears, all of the fans' anticipation and stuff.
love them more and more now.
i believe they can achieve even more very soon! :D
INFINITE HWAITING ((:

okay back down to earth...
MJ auditions SUCKED!
really 200% cannot get in one luh.
i was fine when we learnt and practiced the choreo,
but when i went in my mind sort of went blank.
IDK WHAT I WAS DOING )):
did the choreo three times and non of them was right D:
i think my nervous-ness kills me luh. totally.
under-performs at auditions like twin! )):
oh well. i shall buck up this year and go try again next year.
i needa build up my confidence! lets go TWIN!
must do it next year :D
oh yeah i forgot to say that our audition choreo was twin's open class choreo for blast.
really. i was like O.o haha.

and hor, i wanna complain leh. twin is kinda uncontactable again. sian.
but i will see her every sat luh. so its okay haha.
no but sometimes its still quite irritating when you need to talk to her :\
okay nvm. actually i forgot what i wanted to say liao.

anw twin's blog got this para about Aquarius which is really true.
haha but some parts are quite funny lol!
"Her trust arises from the fact that before committing,
she had dissected your behavior under a microscope."
HAHA! imagine twin dissecting Luke's behavior under a microscope beforehand.
totally burst out into laughter at the 'sight' of that! LOL!
really. literally imagine it and you will know what i mean!
but but its really quite true. i agreed to most of it.
so Mr Phang you know what to expect!
and twin stop quoting stuff from my blog else i will sue you for copyright!
hahahaha. if not pay me compensation fees. lol.
okay kidding. but idk what was amusing about what i said though.

hmm. okay.
i really cannot remember what i wanted to say.
forget it luh. leave that for next time if its important.
if not then also dont have the need to liao.
goodnight ((:

HTHT2! ((:

2011-08-31T02:04:00.001+08:00

sat night's HTHT with twin was the best! :D
was on the phone for almost 3 hours?
haven't done that since sec 1 i think.
my pri school classmates used to call and talk haha.

anw i realised that me and twin have like ENDLESS things to talk about.
wah idk where did all the things come from leh.
maybe cos we are DAMN alike and we tell each other everything (almost i think)?
haha we are alike EXCEPT for our taste in guys! heh.
our taste is really... quite different i guess.
haha so sorry to Mr CT'S-BOYFRIEND.
but yeah actually i didnt realise we were so alike till this HTHT.
we have the same problem with guys! HAHAHAHA.
okay maybe its not a problem luh. idk whats that called.
she'll know what i mean luh hor~

hmm i really think i need to HTHT with twin often. haha.
sharing problems helps lor. i have lots to learn from her too.
not in that aspect though! seriously. haha.
i realised i can be open minded about it and not care.
but i will never behave in any way like that. heh.
accepting it and behaving in the same way isn't the same.
still, its good to listen from her and know about it luh. haha.

anw i am really bored recently.
keep staying at home and doing nothing!
so long never go out with friends, sing k and watch movie liao.
HEY FRIENDS! do i still have any left?
ask me out or something leh. dont be so mean and abandon me )):
uni life is not interesting one hmph. and i dont stay in a hall somemore.
wonder how my other girls are doing. haha.
i wanna meet everyone soon ((:
aish but its 2am (2AM!) now.
lets talk about meeting another time!

ciao!

we go "bounce bounce bounce bounce".

2011-08-28T00:01:00.001+08:00

i have like one thousands thoughts in my head now so i really dont know
where to start or what to say.
i guess what twin told me today really did shock me a bit?
and i THOUGHT i was okay with it.
but really luh. i think the pace is a bit too quick yeah. haha.

anw, dance today was really... really... basic. haha.
we "bounced" for the whole lesson?
other than the super tiring YOGA-like warm-up omg.
i think its really good to learn the basics but twin didnt think so.
and learning the basics made me realised one huge fact.
its making me quite depressed right now. and that is:
I AM NOT MADE TO/SUITABLE FOR DANCING AT ALL.
yeah. i finally realised why i always look awkward doing all dance moves.
no matter how hard i tried to do it with more energy or correctly,
i just dont look as nice as others? i just look weird.
so i just concluded that my build and stuff is just not fit for dancing.
even my mum agrees. hmm )):
maybe i should just go do something else right. D:
i wonder why no one ever told me this until my mum did just now.
shall really give it some serious thought before MJ auditions hmm :\

urgh lets move on from this.
so i have been thinking about this for quite awhile now.
i realised that i like my jc friends much better than the uni ones.
its like my jc friends are so much more on the same level as me.
its so much easier to communicate with twin and horsey!
and i can tell them almost anything without getting trashy reactions from them.
or maybe its just that i haven't met anyone whom i can clique with in uni yet.
i am really going to join a lot of stuff and meet more people (:

and yeah cos i treasure twin and horsey a lot, i am kind of protective of them.
i really dont want them to get hurt! (i think they know what i mean).
that's why i am the MAMA! haha.
take care of them like some mother.
hope you two dont find me bothersome!
you two are my really good friends you know! :D

hmm i guess i have made most of my points.
still got lots of stuff on my mind but i cant type them out.
its okay! there is always next time! haha.
annyeong~ (PS i am feeling much better today!) :D

just realised that its been 3 years but i still remember everything so clearly.
i wonder why.

irritating! )):

2011-08-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

i am like perma like this now )):
3 days liao leh omg!
missed MJ open class and 2 days of school cos of flu D:
and i am still not recovering?
even if i get better i shouldn't dance tmr else i will never recover even by next week!
really need to just rest and let it recover asap.
if i over-exert myself then next week also wont recover.
then GG! cos MJ auditions is on next thurs!
its currently the most important upcoming event.
so i shall sacrifice everything else for that!
which means my dance lesson tmr too )):
but i am still going to watch! can learn by watching quite well too :D
urgh. flu flu go away! dont ever ever come again!
(and the cough too. the cough is getting worse!) D:
okay i shall go rest! goodnight :D

#itsGDay

2011-08-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

i know, this is KPOP related again.
but i HAVE TO say this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY G-DRAGON!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWON LEADER!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWON JIYONG!

i love him 100%.
and on top of that, i respect him 200%.
seriously he is like the greatest, most talented person I've seen.
he is truly my IDOL! :D

saranghaeyo jiyong oppa!

#itsGDay

#foreveralone

2011-08-17T07:33:00.000+08:00

eh?
its sudden but now both of my best friends in jc are attached.
i shall just stay by myself from now onwards,
since they wont have time for me anymore.
i guess this is what you call efficiency?
since we have only started school for less than a month.
idk if my taste is really weird or what?
but i dont like both the guys.
i dont dislike them. just that not my type.
both of them are not someone i will like haha oops.

hmm i shall prepare for life by myself.
and also cos i dont have damn good friends in uni yet.
i mean i have lots of friends in uni but all not close :\
stealing the hash-tag from my twitter friends,
#foreveralone )):

byebye my BFFs! )):

be mine! :D

2011-08-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

omg i love this line in INFINITE's BE MINE.
although i think the translation is a bit off.
but yeah you get the meaning luh.
and its damn sweet.
like the part about covering up her scars.
woah i want a boyfriend like that too! omg.

lets dance! ((:

2011-08-13T22:16:00.004+08:00

whee i went for dance at O School with CT today.
idk why but it was DAMN TIRING.
aching everywhere now.
i think its cos i haven't danced/exercised for 3 weeks straight.
have been a lazy pig and slacking away at home.
i need to start dancing once more to start the momentum!
signed up for a course there... hope to improve along.
anw the open class today made me realised how extremely LOUSY i am.
seriously need to work very hard on dancing now.
i need to improve super a lot urgh.
me and twin are gonna help each other out ((:
and i really need a big mirror at home idc!
i am really very serious about dancing this time round.
already so old and haven't been able to work on what i like.
must do well in dancing from uni onwards!
HWAITING! ((:

anw me and twin are gonna self learn BE MINE.
its like super cool luh seriously.
must try to be cool like them! :D
*fan chants: SARANGHAEYO INFINITE!*

that's all for the dance post today!
more dance posts to come when i start class at O School! :D

*edit edit*
(cos i just read CT's blog so i must respond haha)

Actually I am very happy that i got twin into dancing too!
cos now i have a friend to dance with :D
all my other friends aren't my type of people so its quite sad.
so glad i have twin :DDD
and *cough cough* i cannot understand why twin thinks i am good?
idk but i always look at myself dancing in the mirror and realise how ugly i look D:
and its like everything i do dont look nice like the instructor one. hmm.
the only thing i think i am good at is remembering the steps haha.
yeah so i am twin's portal dance hard disk! :D
guess i have to go get a big mirror asap so me and twin can prac dance tgt.
since her room only got that small mirror at her roommate's side :\
okay off to Ikea when i have time!
shoulder aching liao. annyeong! :D

*end edit*

BFF? hopefully! ((:

2011-08-06T00:22:00.001+08:00

haha twin and me when we were in jc!

went to visit twin in her hall today!

(please ignore that photo. we look different now alrdy! forgot take photo today!)

was there since like 11 plus in the morning and stayed till after dinner! ((:

although i didn't eat there cos i no matric card! )):

anw, had a great time talking to CT :D

HTHT success? haha.

i told her some stuff and she gave me sensible advice! haha.

and i heard about her stuff also luh.

stuff that she neh told me before. happy that she told me :D

and super thankful for her advice and stuff.

she always helps a lot! i always like so useless haha.

but yeah LUCKY TO HAVE HER as my friend :DDD

hopefully we can be BFFs? and yanjie too.

i really like the time in jc that we went thru together!

dont want us to split up and just end our friendship leh.

oops i sidetracked.

so yeah i met her rag friends and seniors too!

damn funny luh her seniors. seriously.

i realised that staying in hall really quite fun.

too bad i will miss out on all those :\

and her room is quite nice too haha.

tempted to stay in hall next year omg!

// oh yeah and i realised that even though after letting go of all the feelings i had and stuff, we still cannot be normal lor. its like we sat beside each other and it was so awkward and we had nothing to talk about. haven't been talking for quite long already i realised. and i thought both of us thought we could be good friends? i dont know how to improve this. i guess its going to be hard. i shall try cos i still believe we can be good friends one! will you try too? ((: haha. //

okay that was random and not for anyone to understand ya.

dont worry if you dont get it. its not meant for you then.

anw yeah shall thank my twin again for the talk today!

hope we can HTHT again soon together with yanjie!

and wait for me stay hall then i shall go crash your room a lot! ((:

jiayou for RAG dance kay! :DDD

OH YA. before i end, i must announce that i am very happy to be taking a GENES R US module for my ger-pe! super excited to learn bio again. and i love the GENES parts!

our first sem lessons seems all quite fun.

suddenly cant wait for school to start! :D

goodnights ((:

Just like her I wanna be pretty;

2011-08-03T22:59:00.001+08:00

have been listening to 2NE1's new song UGLY quite frequently.
set me thinking quite a lot seriously.
when i heard the title i thought it will be about someone mean and bad,
so they describe him as ugly or something.
after i heard the song then i realised they are singing about themselves.
not literally luh but yeah you know...
yeah then i realised that this song is really meaningful and stuff.
its like hinting at how the world sees this beauty and beautiful thing.
and also about how people see themselves.
its like people always think that they are not pretty or good looking enough
so they will have little confidence in themselves.
this is what the song sings about but i think the message they wanna bring across is that everyone sometimes faces set-backs and so they will loose confidence and so think that
they are not good enough.
but this shouldn't make them loose confidence in themselves totally and just think that they are ugly or imperfect or useless or stuff.
i think that they are using this lyrics to encourage people to think that they are pretty or good looking and to have more self confidence.
i mean, if even 2NE1 thinks that they are 'ugly' at times, then its normal for us to think that at times too right? but we shouldn't just live with that mindset.
we should try our best to make things better every time.
okay i am really naggy but i really like the meaning i got from the song.
hope that is really what they are putting across ((:
heres the lyrics in English! listen to it. its nice.

//
[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh~

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh~

[DARA] Why am I this ugly?
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect.
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror.

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now.
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape.
This world is full of lies.

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily.
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you.

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you.
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me.

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern.
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out.
This world is full of lies.

[CL] I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone, I’m all alone.

There is no such thing as warmth.
There is no one by my side.

All alone
I’m all alone, I’m all alone.
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth.
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me.

[CL] I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face, tellin’ me I’m pretty.

I think I’m ugly.
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly.
//

saranghae ((:

2011-08-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

LOVE!!! ((:

life. blah.

2011-08-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

my dad and me at sentosa last week ((:

hmm. i haven been blogging for quite some time since Chinese camp.

have been going out buying things and wandering around with my dad for the whole of last week! cos he went back last thurs so before that had to go get all the things he wanted :\

sorry friends i had no time to go out with you all ):

anw after my dad went back to china i have been nua-ing at home again!

went out with group 6 on sunday though :D

why is our group 6 getting smaller huh! next time everyone must come outing!

haha but we had fun luh. shld have totally just go and sing k only lor.

oh ya sing k! CHERNTZE LETS GO SING K TOO ONE DAY~

yeah but other than that life has been really boring.

going to school tmr! there's some freshman welcome ceremony thing?

hope it will be fun. if not i will just leave and go play! haha.

school is starting next week. start on 8 aug then 9 aug national day holiday liao.

quite dumb right lol. but good luh can slack one more day.

wah i having been really slacking since start of the year leh.

now totally dont feel like going to school. not good.

MUST MUST MUST work hard in uni! omg.

and i am gonna do what i wanna do too!

so yeah quoting CT:

" juggling six mods plus hall life and dance and aiming for a high CAP, so good luck to me, AND dance dance dance all the way! ♥ "
only that i dont have hall life! haha.
but yeah its six mods and high CAP and dance dance dance all the way! ((:

and CT i wanna meet you soon! :\

HSS CHINESE FOC :D

2011-07-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

random picture but this isnt related to my post.
cos i lack a better picture to use :\
anyway you know what i am going to blog about.
actually i am damn tired but i have to do it today!
long post ahead. here goes...

okay so first i must really say with CT there i feel much better.
she made me super high with her and made so many friends damn quickly.
i think if i went alone it wouldnt have been like that.
yeah but actually my super high and drama character REALLY isnt my real character omg. i am like quite the opposite when i am around people i dont know well.
i hate going for orientations. i hate making in friends in a new environment.
i really dont like to talk to strangers one.
but i dont think anyone will believe me after seeing me at this camp :\
its real okay. the chenyi at the camp is SUPER abnormal.
i am NOT so high and NOISY one. really.
omg i have been talking about this weird character at the camp for really long.
but then i think that being HIGH at a camp is necessary lor.
so yeah THANK YOU TWIN! love you :D
just that our group wasnt as high as me and CT so we stood out a bit.
i think some people didnt like us for being so high and noisy.
go ahead. but HEY this is what you should be like for the camp to be fun.
i am not ALWAYS this noisy and high what. hmph.

but i still got sabo-ed by CT for a lot of crap :\
it was fun luh. but i really really dont like to stand out like that one D:
hmm but for sake of making the camp fun i just did what i should ((:
i think after day one of high-ing with CT and not sleeping at night, i was just crazy in day two. said a lot of weird, stupid but funny things and made people laugh! haha. good to entertain people though.
really hope my group didnt mind this crazy girl today :D
now i am still in some camp mood and still high haha ((:
anw i learnt from CT that we really need to fight and just do everything we can for somethings that we want in life. although doing that dance was super embarrassing, i did my best cos i really like to dance!
its like quite the first few times i am dancing in front of audiences somemore!
but yeah really a bit diu lian luh. i dont really wanna be famous you know :\
haha i feel like this post is just crap oh no ):
hao le. last paragraph for dedications :D

DEDI DEDI DEDI DEDICATIONS:
1. of course my TWIN CT luh! ((:
lurb her the most. i really cant thank her enough.
shes been helping me a lot recently!
though she sometimes disappear which is slightly irritating, i still lurb her nonetheless :D

2. My OGLs/GLs! :DD
Meng How (no, should be Xiao Qiao), Xin Yan and Bao Qi :D
they worked really hard to help us and plan and make a lot of things i bet. without them i wouldnt have enjoyed the camp as much so yeah THANK YOU THREE! :D hope to see you (them) in school! haha.
MH aka Xiao Qiao is really fun to niao oops. heh.

3. Evelyn and Luting and YuJing! (:
the seniors attached to our group! they were really high and super funny and entertaining! i think they tried very hard to help us bond as a group and enjoy our time there so yeah THANK YOU ((:
and they like KPOP also! haha YAY YAY (:

4. Fellow Xiao Qiao mates! :D
of course the people who spent the two days with me :D
although i really think some of you found me noisy or irritating.
i am very sorry for that. i sincerely apologize *bows*.
but yeah haha i had fun with everyone! playing all the games and everything!
so happy we won second for everything. XIAO QIAO IS CHIO AND ZAI!

5. Last but not least the people who organised the camp!
Okay this sounds like some para to please the seniors but its not hor.
really need to thank the people who organised the camp.
organised a quite large scale camp before so i know how tiring it is.
THANK YOU HSS CHINESE SENIORS! so happy i've got them ((:

okay i have came to an end of my blog post about the camp.
do you have any questions? hahahaha.
but yeah seriously i really wont regret going for camp and all.
had much fun with qiaos and others.
shall join organizing committee for next years Chinese FOC!
love to do this kind of things one. i will be damn high haha.
cant wait for uni life to start!
see you all my CHINESE mates ((:

name is BLOCK B.

2011-07-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

heh heh i just came across this.
its like quite interesting (at least to me) haha.
anw FYI, my new recent craze is BLOCK B :D

BLOCK B Ranking!

Favorite Member: PARK KYUNG
Least Favorite Member: -
Prettiest Member: Taeil?
Most Beautiful Member: Jaehyo
Member I Wanna Marry: KYUNG :D
Member I Wanna Be Best Friends With: ZICO and KYUNG ((:
Favorite Pairing: ZICO & KYUNG! (like in the picture :D)

okay done ((:
that's all for now.
shall owe the KOREAN MUSIC WAVE post till next time ((:

this is an emo post.

2011-07-13T01:01:00.001+08:00

really shocked just now.
an unexpected thing happened.
didnt leave me feeling very well.
it felt like someone has just cut opened an old scar you've had.
crazily painful. unimaginable feeling.
it was then that i realised i've cried till my tears are dry.
the feeling of wanting to cry but being unable to; scary.
and its irritating how the other person can just forget it completely.
i dont understand. then why cant i forget it too.
loser. feel like such a loser.
i really dont want such good memory at these times.

sorry this is an emotional post.
give me some time to get over it.

anyway these 2 songs have been stuck in my head recently.
must have been watching to much MTV Match Up.
but try listening. KPOP songs arent that bad seriously.
why do nobody around me appreciate it.
really just try listening to everyone even though you cant understand.
the tune and beats and rhythm are really nice.
and the lyrics match well too. at least the sound of it. heh.
okay, introducing the 2 new rookie groups: B1A4 and BLOCK B!

okay off to catch up with sleep due to lack of it ytd night.
oh ya btw i won a Korean Music Wave 2011 poster from ONE TV ASIA!
quite funny but thank you ONE TV ASIA ((:

another chapter; another obstacle.

2011-07-10T02:40:00.000+08:00

i'm scared, i'm nervous. i'm scared, i'm nervous. i'm scared, i'm nervous.
I DONT KNOW.
why do i have to go thru this. i really really dont like it D:
and will i really be able to find a new nice friend? :\
i shall try to be outgoing? haha. stressed about camps and orientations.

okay cannot be emo ((:
some of my friends on twitter are kind of scaring me actually.
hope they are all okay?
i hope i stop meeting not-so-nice people liao.
really met a lot already i am damn tired of complaining.
new friends in uni WILL BE NICE :D

okay i need to sleep.
must ask the girls out to train drinking alcohol soon.
girls lets go :DDD

NTU CAC FOC ((:

2011-07-07T21:22:00.001+08:00

signed up for NTU CAC FOC 2011 :D
just that i cant stay in school overnight.
hope they will be nice and let me go still ((:
really dont think i will survive staying in sch for 4 nights D:
anw good news that they extended the deadline to 12th july!
if not i will never make it in time for tmr.
i dont understand why i neh receive the freshman orientation package one.
just cos i got in thru appeal and its damn late?
thats damn unfair luh. then i miss out so much since the start.
i missed HSS FOC dateline lor. then i cant go.
thats my fac camp yo. stupid luh D:
but hope this one will be fun.

actually i got nth to blog about but i cant let my blog die )):
okay i am off to watch my dramas liao ((:
will update about the camp :DDD

photo credits to: NTUCACFOC 2011 Facebook!

BEAST: 1st Asia Fan Meet

2011-07-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

actually i am lazy to blog about it.
just know that i had fun!
and i am jealous of those fan girls who got damn a lot of fan service!
i was at the front too why didnt i get any )):
nvm. its just their luck.
but i will still go and watch them if they come again!
so super cool and talented people :DDD

bumblebee ((:

2011-07-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

not that i am into doing movie reviews but i really think this is a must watch.
and in 3D obviously. the effects were like cool and stuff so 3D is nice.
yeah and i watched a lot of the parts with my face stunned.
haha sounds stupid but then the plot and the fighting really make me felt that.
when they fight its like so intense and exciting that it makes you hold your breathe omg.
there were parts where it is touching as well. esp parts with bee!
peaceful parts were present but yeah not a lot.
but seriously the actions and fighting in 3D was so worth watching.
sad that this is the last movie for this series.

oh ya and i must not forget to say this.
i still like megan fox better.
the new girlfriend is pretty but she always looks like shes pouting.
and i still think megan fox is prettier. sad she didnt act in this movie )):

this is so weird to say but i think i will miss prime and bee :\
omg i wanna watch it again now just typing about it.
my great love for prime and bee omg. haha.

anw so now i am currently anticipating:
SMURFS 3D
Harry Potter (got 3D or not ah)
Breaking Dawn

theres like a lot to watch in july haha.
and oh i didnt sign up for union camp in the end.
decided that i dont want to join the union anw.
going for open classes for Modern Jazz.
shall try out for the auditions too. hope everything goes well haha.

okay long post again.
to end off, let me tell you stuff that are making me excited right now.
Firstly, coming in like 1 day plus, BEAST FANMEET! ((:
although i am still irritated with junhyung but i am still excited to see them up close!
Next is the KOREAN MUSIC WAVE CONCERT 2011! ((:
i will see BIG BANG again and finally see 2NE1 live!
and also UKISS and MISS A and TEEN TOP! ((:
really anticipate live performances from them.
but yeah i ended up really broke haha.
okay not time for complaining.
as promised, THE END.
byebye.

(next update: BEAST FANMEET!) :D

urgh D:

2011-06-28T22:31:00.005+08:00

//

KARA’s Hara and B2ST’s Junhyung have been revealed to be dating!

On June 28th, Cube Entertainment announced, “They were of a senior and junior relationship until they began dating. They've been dating for about a month now. When Hara was going through difficult times, Junhyung consoled her. Because of their busy schedules, they’ve only been able to go out to eat and other dating activities three times so far.”

DSP Media also announced, “They do have good feelings towards one another, but they’re still getting to know each other. It’s only been a month so far. Please watch over them for a bit more.”

source: OMTD

//

okay i got nothing to say to this.
i cant support them like how i supported the JongKyung couple
cos i disliked Goo Hara ever since i saw her in Kara.
so yeah i am pretty irritated by them dating but ohwell it has nothing to do with me anyways.
idk if i should be a lousy fan by giving up on Junhyung now.
i sort of knew his taste but really didnt expect it to be HER D:
i shall remain irritated until i decide if i should stop liking Junhyung.

anw recently i have been watching a lot of INFINITE videos
and i am starting to like them more and more ((:
maybe i will move on to them cos of this haha.
hoya woohyun and sungyeol damn cuteee :DD

meanwhile, talking about the Jongkyung couple,
they recently broke up cos of busy schedule and not being able to meet each other.
sad that this is how celebrity couples usually end up.
its really hard for them to maintain relationships i guess.
but yeah, they have to get married someday so idk also.

i shall end this complaining post here.
ct disappeared again?
hope shes not angry i couldnt go dance today.
annyeong~

ohoh wait for my next post.
am going to finally put up a list of guys i like recently :D

wheeee~

2011-06-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

okay so this was what i promised ct ((:
happy post here i go!

haha so yeah after that last emo post, sth good happened!
i got my acceptance letter from NTU!
yeah like finally after all that sian sian SIAN waiting.
so hmm yeah was really happy and all.
though i am gonna be studying chinese for FOUR years.
but ohwells, the courses sounds DAMN INTERESTING :D
drama drama here i come :DDD

yeah so finally i put down the heavy stone in my heart.
actually theres sth else i put down too.
hmm yeah to YOU! yes that person haha lol. so GL oops.
but okay i realise that after SO long there is much feelings left.
maybe i was just kind of over reacting and sort of angry at that time.
please ignore what i said and lets start again and be good friends.
yes good friends like we said before :D
must go sing K together "next time".
whenever your "next time" is (cos it never happened haha).

okay so yep! i have put down almost everything in my heart.
now i feel quite at ease and everything.
hope things continue to go smoothly and turn out well.
yeah including that stupid thing which idk if i got cheated hmm.

HOPE HOPE uni turns out well too.
super confused about everything in uni now.
AUs, CCA, camps, idk what electives and what not.
pray that i find my way around all these.
and hope i can find some new friends cos i HATE changes
and going into an new environment A LOT D:
thats why i dont feel like going for any camps.
but ct says its need and important so SMALL HORSE go with me leh.
i need a long time to adapt. hopefully people approach me and be friends ((:
must learn from ct and attempt to get a BF too. hee hee.

yeah so quite a long and trashy post but just to say i am ALL FINE now.
nervous yet excited and everything.
I REALLY WANT EVERYTHING TO TURN OUT WELL NOW.

cant wait for BEAST FANMEET too.
and KOREAN WAVE CONCERT 2011.
so many korean stars to see this month.
gonna affect my standard for guys when i go uni liao HAHA.

i shall end this long rant.
sorry for boring people out hee.
see all my friends soon~ i hope.

cos everyone is stepping onto their new paths.

(:

2011-06-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

why is everyone walking their path so easily.
then why is my path filled with pit-holes and boulders.
life is just so so unfair that we cant do anything about it.

i dont think i can walk on any further.
although this isnt the first time but i really really want to go to heaven now.
it must be really nice there ((:

can i just say, bye.

blow, wind, blow.

2011-06-17T18:31:00.001+08:00

beautiful ((:
kpop isnt just about auto-tuned songs and cool dance moves.
these are the talents.
the kind who dont sing that kind of songs and go out of tune singing live.

love woohyun in the mv too :D

ouch.

2011-06-16T12:31:00.000+08:00

urgh. i give up.
why do i lie so much to myself when i know there is no hope.
kept thinking that there is still some hope so i should wait.
but seriously, there is no chance or hope at all anymore.
living in self denial is hard. i give up.

its like your life just breaks and shatters but theres nothing you can do.
i dont know what my next step should be anymore.

안녕히 계세요.

제발.

2011-06-09T00:53:00.001+08:00

Cuz you’re the cheater, a liar, and a killer.

totally agrees with the lyrics in 제발.

(((:

2011-06-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONGWOON OPPA! ((:

생일 축하 해요 ((:

2011-05-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

생일 축하합니다,
생일 축하합니다,
사랑해 민우오빠,
생일 축하합니다!

happy birthday 민우오빠!
please continue to be good looking and play nice music! ((:

BEAST: FICTION

2011-05-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

LOVE TTM.
nothing more to say.

oh ma boy~

2011-05-03T22:18:00.007+08:00

nice song.
love the lyrics and the tune (:

//
Let’s go S.I.S.T.A.R, Sistar!
Baby stop breakin’ my heart
You heard me? No more next time!
I hope you got that boy

Hey girls It’s gon’ be alright
Hey boys Better make it right
Hey girls We got ya back

말하지 않아도 알 수 있다 했잖아 내 맘 어떤지 넌 알고 있겠지
그래서 믿고 참고 기다렸지 혼자 두지 않겠다고 했잖아
약속했었지 손가락 걸었지 그런데 왜 또 거짓말을 해

사랑한다는 말 그리 어렵니 한마디 말이면 되는걸
너 자꾸 변해가 나도 이젠 조금 지쳐가 Oh Oh
시간이 갈수록 더 모르겠어 좋아질수록 나는 더 아픈데
(Why you trippin’ boy) 날 좀 바라봐

Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 무슨 사랑을 알아 내 맘만 아파
Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 어떻게 내 맘을 알아 Don’t let me down Boy

Rap: 너 때문에 내가 미쳐 why try’n play games with me?
너로 인해 하루에도 나는 몇 번씩 UP &DOWN
Don’t let me down, 난 울어 매일 밤 (No, No)
Stop breakin’ ma heart

너는 내 기분도 모르고 눈 돌려
What I got what you lookin’for
한 눈 팔지마 이게 내 마지막 경고 (oh, no)
This gon’ be the last time

사랑한다는 말 그리 어렵니 한마디 말이면 되는걸
너 자꾸 변해가 나도 이젠 조금 지쳐가 Oh Oh
시간이 갈수록 더 모르겠어 좋아질수록 나는 더 아픈데
(Why you trippin’ boy) 날 좀 바라봐

Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 무슨 사랑을 알아 내 맘만 아파
Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 어떻게 내 맘을 알아 Don’t let me down Boy

Woo Boy 더 좋아질수록
Woo Boy 아픈 내 맘을 아니 너

내 맘에 작은 속삭임 때론 나를 보는 따뜻한 눈길
그거 하나면 되 오직 너만 원해 아직도 너만 내 맘 모르잖아

Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 무슨 사랑을 알아 내 맘만 아파
Oh Ma Boy ~ Oh Ma Boy ~Baby
니가 어떻게 내 맘을 알아
Don’t let me down Boy
Ma Boy
//

anw after some thinking thru i realised that we are better off being friends.
but i need some time to get use to this.
sorry if my words were sharp yesterday.
it was to protect myself.
i guess everything is alright now? i hope so.

난 몰라

2011-04-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

난 몰라. i dont know.
whats up with my friends recently.
following them is so hard.
am i the only one who needs them?
do they not treat me as a friend at all?
i dont know. what are they thinking exactly.
i try so hard to be nice and this is all i get?
then i rather not have friends.
its killing me.
난 정말 몰라. i really dont know.

생일 축하

2011-04-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLING BLING JONGHYUN OPPA!

please come back soon (:

fly.

2011-04-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

꿈이 있어요.
and i really want to reach out for it.

i want to do something about it but now i cant.
its too late to regret.
now its up to them. i'll just hope. i'll just pray.
but i'll never lose faith (:

i will reach it. one day.

ilovemyfriends ((:

2011-03-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

好朋友就是在一起的时候即使都不说话都不会觉得尴尬。

好朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。

和你一同笑过的人，你可能把他忘掉；但是和你一同哭过的人，你却永远不忘。

回忆过去，多么庆幸那时有你。

好朋友必须是一辈子的。

up in the sky~

2011-02-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

somebody is flying off tmr and somebody is sad! haha.
bye bye yaoz! thank you for your help.
i will help you take care of her one (:
although she'll miss you still lol.
see you~ must have faith in each other :D

bff? ._.

2011-02-26T00:04:00.001+08:00

hey we arent THAT close okay.
why does everyone think so.
i may treat her as my best friend but i really dont know about her.
idk what shes thinking luh. zzz.
peoples' hearts are so difficult to understand.

anyway i saw a picture.
and it totally made me wanna call her THE QUEEN.

i mean look at her omg.
absolute class and elegance (:
pretty girl. super.
heh.

oh new computer on sunday!
cant wait. it will be so much faster and screen's much bigger :D
got lesson today. so erm good morning?
bye.

._.

2011-02-13T15:15:00.000+08:00

well done.
chenyi has caught the flu virus.
urgh.
meanwhile lets listen to another nice song by 张芸京 :D

(:

2011-01-31T11:46:00.002+08:00

why am i suddenly so in love with her.
pretty song x3
the mv so cute :D

the opposite.

2011-01-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

我看着镜子后面皱着眉的我
很孤单她有话想说
像天空不会永远都是蓝色的
有阴天你才会抬头

走穿多少的巷弄笑了哭了
有三四个人爱我

我想要一个乱了数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我

我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动也不会痛

像轮胎用了太久没气了所以
原谅我想消失几周
每个人都在选好的轨道奔走
讲真的我想要呼救

请看爱情的脸孔美的丑的
几千万人都被愚弄了
这个我那个我不一样的我
等什么想什么怕什么

nice song. nice voice. nice lyrics.

phew.

2011-01-29T14:32:00.000+08:00

finally everything is back to normal.
tired.
anw i dropped my crystal on the floor and the led screen cracked.
now got patches of black on the screen omg.
heart pain ))): so i bought a not so ex phone here.
LG Lollipop red! :D
keep wanting a flip phone whee.
its quite pretty leh (:

zzz.

2011-01-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

realised i dont wanna lose a friend.
it bothers me a lot.
so i tried. but now you are ignoring me eh.
then what can i do.

why isnt it snowing ):

2010-12-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

nothing to do.
another personality test result.
not bad leh! quite true (:

G. 野象

自由奔放的霸道主义者

野象从小就生长在丛林里，非常热爱自由，高大醒目的外表很是抢眼，这类型的人开朗乐观，自由奔放，颇得众人的喜爱，豪放起来有点不拘小节，不了解你的人可能会被吓一跳哦！你具有积极进取的精神，为人坦率直接，行事果决，不管遇到大事还是小事，都不会犹豫，越能激发你的斗志。

yo untouchable joker.

2010-12-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG JUNHYUNG! x3
forever so good looking and making my heart skip a beat! :D
continue to rap nicely (:

and goodbye world!
see you 2 months later :D

i will miss you ):

:\

2010-12-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

said so much yet all i wanted to say was actually: i miss you.

everybody chicken! (:

2010-12-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE JINKI! :D
dont be too cute and make all the girls jealous! (:

love is ouch.

2010-12-14T00:59:00.001+08:00

我问，怎样才能让一个人知道你在想他？
你说，心里不停地默念他的名字，他就能感受到。
可我一直在心底重复着你的名字，你却一直没有音信。
也许，你并不知道我在等你。

我问，当你在等一个人的短信时，你是会调成静音模式还是户外模式？
你说，静音。这样，发现短信来到的时候就会充满惊喜。
于是我调了静音，于是我马上就后悔。
我一直在看手机，我觉得自己有些强迫症了。
每一次屏幕亮起的瞬间，我的一颗心就也跟着亮了起来。
这感觉，那样美好，那样心碎。
也许，你并不知道我在等你。

我问，你忙吗？在干嘛？吃了吗？
你一一回答，不忙，看书，没吃。
可我却发现自己笨笨地不知该再说些什么，再说什么都是多余，再说什么都只会让人厌烦。

你生活在一个可以没有我的世界，我居住在一个只有你的天空。
所以，我注定是个失败的人。
可是，为什么聪明的你不能帮我想一想，我还可以和你说什么，我还能为你做什么？
可是，为什么不忙的你不能试着回一些疑问句，让我们的对话更长？
可是，为什么你从没有这样的时候，这样想念着我，想念着一个一直在等你的人？
也许，你并不知道我在等你。

我什么也没问出口，可这不代表我的草稿箱里什么都没有。
我一直在写，一直在删，一直在改。偶尔一两条，又会在发出之前的最后一秒被转入草稿箱。
可纵使是这样的严格筛选，我还是不知不觉攒下了许多草稿。
那许许多多的字里行间，其实只有三个字：我想你。
但你却问，还说我没有发，你不是一样没有音信？
我说，因为害怕打扰到你。
其实，我只是想等你主动发一次，让我相信，其实，你也很想念我。
也许，你并不知道我在等你。

我想你，好想你。
不停揣测你心里，可曾有，我的姓名。
才发现，
原来，你真的不知道我在等你。
等你的一个回答，那一句话。

brighter than the sunlight.

2010-12-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

就让你飞飞过现在两个人胶着
风有多大雨有多美才是你的一切
给你的祝福我不掉泪
说好天堂各自寻找请不要回头望
远远关心就好你飞吧

to me, you are like the moon.
the moonlight is gentle but bright.
never fails to make me smile when i see it.
just like how i feel warm and happy when i see you.
i will remember your smile forever.
but for now... goodbye, my 첫사랑.

nothing more than LOVE.

2010-12-09T01:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINHO OPPA! :D

its finally the birthday of the oppa with the shining big eyes.
my most beloved one of all too.
hope that he is blessed and always happy (:
saranghae!

goodbye ):

2010-12-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

那些没说出口的话, 怎么办?

everything is over. everything has ended.
hes gone... now what?
为什么就是开不了口让他知道.
its like losing balance suddenly.
its a scary feeling. i hate it.

baby dont go.

2 in a day (:

2010-12-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

2 movies in a day!
damn different genre somemore.
Rapunzel 3D + Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (luckily no 3D)!
damn tiring. my eyes was swollen in the morning today.
but both were nice :D
oh btw i stole the rapunzel picture from yanjie :D
she removed her tag board lol.

rotting at home is damn boring!
not like somebody everyday go out with bf.
haha. shall watch more dramas :D
going back to china sooooooon. cant wait! :D

20kissesforkevin (:

2010-11-25T22:05:00.002+08:00

whee. i almost forgot!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN OPPA! :D
he is seriously like the prettiest guy ever! (:
and the KISSMEs trended #20kissesforkevin till worldwide.
so proud of U-Kiss and all KISSMEs :D

going drama camp on saturday!
yay kids, me and yuensin are back :D
wooh. going back to work on sunday hmm.
scared scared. hope its not too bad. its been a year! oO
aiyeee. why is the weather so hot when its raining outside.
i wanna watch Playful Kiss! (:
annyeong.

Eiffel (:

2010-11-18T17:56:00.004+08:00

head.ache.
pain ):
ah i shouldnt have drank.
1 day before econs paper.
i really dont care about econs eh.
bad mood. ah that show is really a killer.
especially cos it damn right reminded me of what i want to forget badly.
sucks. but i have no choice.
screw econs. i dont wanna study for it.

one day i will go to paris and never come back.
i wont be missed anyway. right.
oh by the way, yong junhyung is cute :D
quite into B2ST recently cos their new songs are nice.
sorry SHINee oppa. i have to side track for awhile.

this is the cutest mv ever :D
same as SHINee's Hello mv of course (((:

junhyung :D
(he is the guy who injured his arm btw)

미안 해요

2010-11-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

안녕히 가세요 내 친구

20th November it shall be ):

baby dont cry ):

2010-11-08T10:43:00.002+08:00

i feel so guilty for being so angry with jonghyun oppa
that i almost quit being a SHINee fan.
apparently he cried at a taiwan fanmeet
cos all the fans gave him so much cheers and support.
actually i was only angry for a while.
after watching their goodbye stage for HELLO,
i felt damn heartbroken for him cos he looked so tired and upset ):
i cried just watching that performance.
i'm sorry jonghyun oppa ):
and, dont cry. the shawols still love you :D
me too! (:

its been a long time (:

2010-11-02T21:23:00.002+08:00

ahhh. damn long neh come le (:
anw i saw this thingy about birthdays.
is it accurate? hmm...

2月1日 (太阳,魔术师) 代表人物：克拉克盖博 (idk wth is this)
热情、活跃、任性、大胆、勇敢，意志力非常坚强
富有冒险精神，喜爱文学、音乐、艺术和旅行，拥有很好的创作才华。
优点是聪明，企图心强，活力充沛，有很好的领导和沟通能力。
缺点是比较顽固、独断，个性冲动，情绪难以控制。

anws. cant wait for this month to be over.
maybe march isnt something i want to face either.
but whatever it is, i will try hard. hope you do too (:

charis, i'm SMILING :DDD

ahhh :D

2010-10-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

haha i just saw this on fb. interesting :D
http://www.whosthecutest.com/
its not a virus luh (:

anyway i think my answer would be SHINee though.
watch this :D

love love :D

saranghae.

2010-09-25T22:28:00.001+08:00

if you need to convince yourself that you love someone, then it isnt true love.
love shouldn't be forced.
it is something that comes naturally when you find the right one.
you shouldn't ever need to. need to convince yourself that you love a person.
maybe you dont love him at all.

do i, then?

不公平 ):

2010-09-24T22:28:00.003+08:00

yay. i found the song i kept singing in marina barrage yanjie :D
its from 斗鱼! called 不公平.
you got watch or not! (:
the song...quite nice. like like ((:
listen to it kae :D

lyrics :D

走了那么远发现你不在身边
独自走过了什么自己都不了解
未来的蓝图应该有你不该只剩叹息
只是偶尔泪流不停

坚强的理由只是自己骗自己
你眼中的恐惧说什么都多余
付出的一切值不值得永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深是不是罪灭了自己
一颗心属于我自己爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避我学会不公平

坚强的理由只是自己骗自己
你眼中的恐惧说什么都多余
付出的一切值不值得永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深是不是罪灭了自己
一颗心属于我自己爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避我学会不公平

一颗心属于一个人在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深是不是罪灭了自己
一颗心属于我自己爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避我学会不公平

本来就不公平

생일 축하! (:

2010-09-23T16:50:00.012+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO THE SEXY DIVA
KIM KI BUM, KEY OPPA! (:

KEY OPPA WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED :D

))):

2010-09-20T18:20:00.001+08:00

MAF is coming along and my house has no mooncakes ):
anybody want to donate some? i cant find any i like leh D:
ah fine luh i am picky. i only eat nice flavours like chocolate or fruits snowskin.
dont eat the traditional kind. best if can find a few like these:

the last one is my FAV :D mango and dora! OMG :DDD

ah anyway mooncakes aside...
my life is quite disgusting things lately.
got some stuff happening which makes me v disgusted.
and i cant seem to get away from them.
maybe after some time it will be better? i really hope so.
tired. shall go mug for chem paper 2.
annyeong (:

爱上一个不爱自己的人，好辛苦。

and bonus pictures for yanjie :D

walkin out of destiny.

2010-09-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

home for the night.
better blog before i go back and my laptop die on me again -.-

ah maths sucked. like a lot? zzz.
looking forward to paper 2 now.
my beloved darling 60% of statistics!
hope it can save me man. why isnt stats 100% D:

its chem in 8 hours and 45 minutes and i'm here?
oops. but i finished reading most of the stuff le.
just that i think... i cant remember 80% of it -.-
OH! and chem is in the HALL! :DDD

life sucks. i seriously need to walk out of destiny.
i needa walk my own way.

ah btw the panda is cute right :D

你给的恶作剧 (:

2010-09-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

LOVELOVELOVE! x3
hyun joong is so good looking! :D
and so min is super cuteee.
wish that a levels faster end so i can buy the dvd and watch this.
watched 4 episodes already. damn nice.
its abit different from the taiwan ver but some things are the same.
damn funny somemore.
cute girl, good looking guy, funny&romantic plot.
THIS IS A MUST WATCH :DDD
isnt the photo sweeeeet (:

장난스런 Kiss (Mischievous Kiss) is LOVE x3

look who's back now.

2010-09-14T15:35:00.006+08:00

2NE1 :D
new album new songs new style. cool (:

& currently i'm on this song.

A translation of the lyrics:

\\[CL]You’re so cheap and this isn’t like you
I can’t get used to it now, it makes me dizzy, why
Who’s breaking up with who
You’re breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah

[Minzy] A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who’s breaking up with who
You’re breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah

[CL] Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Minzy] Don’t try to console me
Move this hand, we’re strangers now

[Bom] Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand
[Dara] I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

[CL] Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I’m walkin’ out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That’s my way
I gave it my all, so I don’t have regrets

[CL]Pretending like you’re more sad
Pretending you’re cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shit without your crew
I don’t have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don’t want to see your ugly face again no more.\\

the lyrics is cool and the title says it all :D

colours of the wind.

2010-08-23T21:57:00.003+08:00

黄色的蓝色的白色的无色的你.
只有你留下的伤疤最痛, 最深.

and everyday i can only look from afar.

hurricane venus (:

2010-08-12T20:59:00.005+08:00

hurricane venus! (:
do like the BoA and SHINee love!
and minho danced for music core recording today.
cant wait for 14th Aug's broadcast :DDD
dancing minho yah.

was sitting at the bus stop with yanjie today.
this song this verse suddenly came to my mind.

我们都没错
只是不适合
我要的我现在才懂得
快乐是我的
不是你给的
寂寞由自己负责

there will always be.

2010-08-11T21:00:00.002+08:00

"stole" this from yanjie's blog.
like like :DDD and agrees a lot.

and my pretty darling is all grown up (:
shes acting as some stripper in a stage play? OMG.
but its acting. acting. so i shall accept it.
the play is called CLOSER neh. i bet shes good :D
unnie you're so pretty (((:

my life is. messy.
gonna increase my pace now.
jiayous (:

more than the air i breathe.

2010-08-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

i think i miss one perf on 1st Aug but i cant find it D:
urgh nvm.

interview (dont know what they saying -.-)

LUCIFER :D

WINNING + Cute ENCORE :DDD

and BOA came back!
someone i really look up to (:
love love :DDD

everyone just dont seem to understand me eh.
is my thinking really that weird.
i have my reasons ):

it just gets better x3

2010-07-31T21:20:00.003+08:00

flawless.

black and white darlings.
nice nice nice performance and outfits! (:

and the boys' talents are REAL yeah.
it has been proven that they ARE good at singing and dancing.
and they dont fake it with music's cover.

SHINee praised for flawless singing voices
"A performance video of SHINee's comeback stage on Music Core with the MR (music recording) of Lucifer removed has been garnering lots of positive attention lately.
Usually when viewing performances that have the music recording removed, loss of breath and off-key notes can be heard near the end of the performance which is normal due to intense conditions, however the boys have only been receiving positive feedback for keeping up their vocally powerful voices strong throughout the entire performance."

heh heh.
was so happy when i read this.
really looking up to them as people whom i respect now.
idols :DDD
SHINee power (((:

a twist of fate and it changes everything forever.

perfect.

2010-07-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

they won Music Bank K-charts 1st place!!! :DDD
after just one plus week?
they are just perfect (((:

love their outfits! esp taemin and jonghyun's.
is it their shoes or is minho in a cast oO
hope he is recovering well! ):

inspired. motivated. encouraged.
i can do this (:

and i wanna go see CN BLUE ):
yonghwa ah...

her whisper is the lucifer.

2010-07-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

our friendship was put to the test.
and it got an U.
since it was about u and not us then i should drop this subject i guess.

pain.
what more can i say.

i wanna see minho again.
suddenly. just one more time.

nothing better than that (:

2010-07-26T21:37:00.001+08:00

as usual.
one day late cos i slept early yesterday!
chern~ the song is nice lor. just listen to it more haha (:

super duper cute performance!
esp taemin :DDD omg cute cute maknae! (:
as minho always go, HA! (:

they are just getting better at this.
must must must watch this performance neh.
then you will fall in love with THEM and the SONG (((:

jonghyun's sexy back again.
onew is becoming more charismatic.
taemin's hair is messy but his singing is getting better.
kibum darling is hot hot hot :D
minho is standing today! means he is getting better?
anyway his hair is DAMN COOL (:

the backdrop reminds me of spiderwebs though.
haha. i must learn the dance. by myself.
*living in the SHINee world*

and to that.
i dont know. i dont wanna care anymore.
yanjie is right when she said: 朋友就是这样的.
shouldnt put too much into friends.
you'll just end up getting hurt.
so ya whatever.
if you wanna go then just go.
i'll stop trying.

back to fangirl mode.
miss minho dancing on stage!
hope he recovers (((:
but hope sm wont force him to dance when he hasn't completely recover though.
SHINee hwaiting :D

the boys are back.

2010-07-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

i'm gonna do this until they finish their comeback performances (:

they are perfect x3

SHINee and their spikes.

Jonghyun and his sexy back.

Minho and his THRONE :DDD

and this.

the song is nice but what attracted me was the title.

G.NA feat HyunA. HyunA came to support G.NA (:

fallen angel.

2010-07-23T22:28:00.027+08:00

Loverholic.
Robotronic.

거부 할 수 업는 너의 마력은 Lucifer.

마치 Roller-coaster Ride.

all i wanna do is sleep.

2010-07-12T22:28:00.003+08:00

thanks to that. i am so tired.

didnt sleep the whole night.

dozed off during gp and chem.

sorry teachers.

and i missed the goal Spain got in cos i fell asleep for like 5 mins?
DDD: what a dumb girl i am right.

anyway to prove that Riley from Eclipse is GOOD-LOOKING.
heres a photo of the actor. Xavier Samuel.

he looks much better when he isnt sulking right.
or maybe just when he isnt a vampire.
twin look! he is not-bad looking what!

ah. i am tired. bed bed i want my bed.
what a horrible day.
i dont know what you are turning into.
why are your words so harsh.
and to think i nicely spent my time writing the letter.
and you had to be so mean. ah whatever.

oh thank you pengyouuu.
i was just trying to be like her cos shes cool.
but i failed. haha. why am i overflowing! ><

simple. yet complicated.

2010-07-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

sometimes. i just need someone to lean on.
and maybe thats why i kept getting lost.
i wont anymore. i'll get stronger.
i just want to live life simpler. my way.

its not the first time.
but its definitely the last.
sayonara.

some personality test.

2010-07-05T20:44:00.004+08:00

its a nice photo right.

its a effect heh. shes pretty.

eun jo yah. pretty eun jo.

pretty moon geun young (:

anyway i just did some personality test thing on some china website.

its QUITE accurate i think.

haha. is it?

B.金色阳光
你有一个阳光般灿烂、温暖的灵魂，将金色的光彩普照到世间每一个角落。你天生善良、感性，凡事都会顾全大局，为别人着想。感情在你的心中占有很重要的位置，无论是亲人、朋友，抑或爱人，凡是自己在乎的人，你都会心甘情愿地为他们献出自己全部的爱，为他们付出再多也没有丝毫抱怨。面对自己的爱人，能够最大程度地激发你灵魂中的母性，你很愿意像母亲一般给予对方最深的关爱与照顾，让他因为有你而感到无比的幸福。

i agree with the 你都会心甘情愿地为他们献出自己全部的爱 part.
cos i do that to my friends neh.
the rest... idk. what do you think? heh.
motherly? omg. DDD: i dont think i am that oldy and mouldy right.
hahaha. so tired of studying.
how i hope a lvls faster enddd.
i wanna go back to china. go back to my darling cousin :DDD
ah. tv tv tv. i wanna watch tv. bye.

cinderella. sisters.

2010-06-28T21:01:00.001+08:00

eun jo yah. eun jo yah.

when she cried my tears came flowing down.

i am gonna be like eun jo one day. cold like ice. emotionless.

soon. very soon. i will turn into someone like her.

but she lost to love. i wont.

stop any feelings so i wont get hurt.

i can do it well. i can survive well on my own.

can i?

shes really pretty.

byebye :D

2010-06-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

i'm flying tmr.

leaving singapore for now.

should be in china at this time tmr.

see you all when school reopens!

jiayou mugging :D

goodbye for now! ):

2010-06-06T23:11:00.001+08:00

byebye xiaoma! i think you should have reached.

mama will miss you a lot neh! ):

see you in 5 days :DDD

saranghaeyo~

its simple.

2010-06-05T21:55:00.006+08:00

he isn't anyone impressive, isn't any superstar, isn't any great leader.

but he is he himself. //and i like him for who he is.

alvinnnnnnnnnn (:

2010-06-01T22:13:00.001+08:00

found this. edited and sent to xiaoma via mms.

she dao-ed me though. think shes busy with her stuff?

dk. shes always busy with her idk what stuff luh.

anyway i am tired. and tonight is kind of GL.

talking to so many random people on msn.

i'll talk more tmr luh. i shall go concentrate on msn.

annyeong (:

oh by the way this is my 500th post.

happy 500. what a long way my life has moved.

dora (:

2010-05-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

dora :DDD
i suddenly want to decorate my room entirely with dora.
and i want a dora! i want that bread which makes you rmb everything.
maybe i can get at least a C for every subject then.
haha. A is abit difficult cos i think i'll die eating all that bread.
holidays are filled with remedials. I SHALL WORK HARD.
i just told my mum: I have my aim and i must achieve it.
yeah. so i guess its time to get serious. and start studying.

tired ):
i go dream of dora le. sayonara :D